So the feelings. I feel like my life has changed drastically for the worse in the past week and I blame Snow White. That’s not her actual name obviously. Her actual name starts with an ‘x’. That may or may not be a lie. What’s not a lie is that I’m really kind of childisly in love with this girl. Childish because I’ve only known her a few weeks.
She doesn’t love me back. She’s only 18. That gives her the unique ability to say nothing true without telling a lie.
I miss her. I wanted to see her last night. That didn’t work out. She wasn’t interested. She says she’ll join me Wednesday. The day after Christmas. I know she’s using me. I hope I’m wrong.
I want to end it now while Schrodinger’s box is still closed but how can i?
What makes it so tempting is that I have no idea how much is actually in there. Looks like a lot. But who knows how much failed to dissolve. The tar just /did not/ want to dissolve in lukewarm water. I went through like 5 cottons cos they kept getting saturated.