#outofmonkeys

As an aquarius, I agree, but I don’t know much about a Scorpio to give an opinion on that.

Hey guys...it’s me. 

This is gonna hurt me more to say than it’ll hurt you to hear, so at least there’s that.

After much deliberation, I’ve made the decision to archive this blog. It’s going to be a rough goodbye, because this blog and you all have seen me through some very rough times. But there comes a certain point when you have to admit to yourself that whatever place you once had has expired. And that’s what’s happened here. During season one maybe I was relevant, but now I’m...not. 

And that’s no one’s fault. I haven’t been around a whole lot, and I’m not caught up. It’s understandable. I didn’t expect anyone to wait around on me. I’m not angry. It’s just a fact. This blog has little to no foot traffic anymore. Many of my friends have already exited stage left. It’s come time for me to do the same. I can’t log on without finding anon hate, so that’s kind of a good incentive, too. The reason it hurts so much is because it means not only admitting that this chapter of my life has closed, but it also means owning up to the fact that, while I’ll miss this blog...not much of anyone is going to miss me. And that’s not some subtle jab. I’m not throwing shade. I’m not angry at anyone, or trying to prove some point, or crying out for attention. It’s just the way things are. Whether I like it or not, that’s the way things are. Carrying on pretending to be important to this community isn’t going to do anyone any good. It’s just kind of sad at this point, actually...

I really want to throw in Fitz’s “golden boy” quote here, but I feel like it’s a bad time.

This isn’t because I’ve lost my Fitz muse. I’m pretty sure that’s impossible. This dumb character will always be an intrinsic part of me for...obvious reasons. So if anyone would like to continue their threads with me via Skype, please give me a shout. Or, hey, even if any of you just want to chat...let me know. Even if you don’t want to RP. I’d be more than happy to give it to any of you guys. Please, please, please hit me up. Please. I’m going to have plenty of free time now that summer’s rolled around. Also I’m on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, Kik...so...no excuse to be a stranger, yeah? I also have a personal blog. 

I will miss you all dearly. This blog has given me some very good friends, including one of the best people I’ve ever had the privilege of knowing. And I wouldn’t trade any of it for the world. I’ll be leaving everything on this blog up for the sake of nostalgia. I could never erase what all has transpired here. We’ve all built some marvelous worlds together, and told some incredible tales, and I have valued every second, just as I have valued every one of you. Please know that I genuinely consider you all to be my friends, and I have had so much fun getting to know you all. I’m so proud of all of you. You each bring something unique to the table. You’ve got wonderful, dynamic, powerful personalities, and have such wonderfully creative minds. I believe with every fiber of my being that you’re all going to go on to do wonderful things.

Please never forget that no matter how hard things get, no matter how much you’re hurting, everything is temporary. Value yourself. Take care. Try to get enough sleep at night (I’m one to talk), eat healthy foods when you can, but remember to treat yo self too. Your mental health is more important than school, work, or anyone else. Your mental health is more important than school, work, or anyone else. Your mental health is more important than school, work, or anyone else. You’re enough. You’re more than enough. Never settle for anyone who treats you like anything else. Be picky with who you let into your life, because you only deserve people who treat you as you want to be treated - with love and respect. Forgive yourself, because you’re human, and you’ll make mistakes. Remember that you’re young. Please, God, remember that you’re young. These are the years that we are supposed to mess up. These are the years that we are supposed to stumble and fall, and learn lessons. No one is perfect at life from the word go. No one is perfect at life ever, actually. So don’t be too hard on yourself. Pick yourself up, brush off your knees, and carry on. Say yes to things, because you can. Take the job. Go on the vacation. Stay up with your friends, talking about nothing because right now you have time, and you have it in spades. Accidentally spend too much money. There will be a time when you can no longer do these things. Do them now. Laugh until you can’t breathe, and your stomach hurts. Cry until you can’t breathe, and your stomach hurts. Don’t be afraid to feel everything. Get excited. Be passionate. A life without feeling isn’t a life being lived to the fullest, so don’t let society convince you that you shouldn’t feel something. Be brave. Be safe. Keep your head up. Travel in groups, and don’t be dumb. Park where it’s well-lit, and as close to the doors as you can. Keep your phone in your hand. Avoid walking by vans. When in doubt, get a police officer or security guard to walk you to your car. They won’t mind, and it’s better safe than sorry. Drive slower in the rain and the snow, even if you’re running late. It’s better to get there late than not at all. Buckle your goddamn seat belt, because it’s actually important. Revel in the little things. Pick flowers. Wear what makes you happy. Dye your hair if you wanna. This is your life. Yours. And you can do whatever the hell you want with it. Stay strong, and never be afraid to ask for help. We’re all still figuring it out. You are never, ever alone. Never. I love you. I believe in you. And I will miss you.

So long, and thanks for all the fish. 

All my love as always,