#othellosyndrome

make the jealousy end

so, yes, the love someone with bpd feels is extremely strong and that is good. but when you mix jealousy and fear of abandonment into it, it stops feeling like a good trait and starts feeling like a curse. i am not capable of being in a happy, healthy relationship. i love my boyfriend to death and i’d do anything for him but he also causes me the worst pains in my life

i love how my anxiety is dibilitating on its own yet i never acknowledge it because i’m so busy with my bpd, body dysmorphia and jealousy

woke up today with no will to live. the only time i’m (mostly) free from my mental illnesses is when i’m intoxicated.

is there literally ANYBODY out there who has othello syndrome like me???? i feel so alone

i’m so jealous my heart breaks over and over and my chest hurts and the feeling of betrayal is so heavy that i need to lay down

it feels like my fp cheated on me. it hurts so bad. how do i deal with this? it’s not like he really did.. but if it feels like he did to me then? how do i cope? i cant just pretend it didn’t happen.. and i can’t leave him but i don’t want to be with a cheater but he didn’t really cheat. i’m going to fucking lose it

stoned rn. my first moment of anything but depression today. i usually forget or let go things i’m upset about when i smoke but this isn’t shaking. i cant take this. i feel like this might be the turning point in my relationship where i go crazy until the other person leaves because i’m so wildly jealous. i should’ve killed myself