john writing about dean in his journal is 90% him mentioning a stomach-churning deeply emotionally-incestuous dysfunctional habit he instilled into that boy and following it up with #proud #mysonis #agoodsoldier ?? as far as i'm aware he admits once (once) that he had no right to put the weight of sam's life on dean's shoulders but otherwise he is like when i whistle dean comes to me like a dog <3 yay <3 i'm sure he is like this by his own devices. no john i don't think so















