#opentalk

Opentalk   /ˈəʊp(ə)ntɔːk/

noun A voice conversation between 2 people which anybody can listen live or later. Example: "That Opentalk between Sumit & Ashwani was great."

verb Talk to someone and broadcast the conversation "Let us Opentalk and share our views with the world."

The problem: People know so much about so many things but the current available methods of sharing knowledge are only meant for few advanced creators blocking this huge plethora of knowledge to become available to mass.

What is Opentalk: Opentalk allows users to have conversations with their followers and friends and allow it to listen live or later. This is simplifying the knowledge sharing & allowing it to happen in the most comfortable way & language.

I am really not sure. There has been a remembering just popped up in my head. it felt a bit like a “heureka” moment. let me first tell you a story about my last years and how this thought came to me. Life is crazy to me. I am appretiating every situation I had to go through in my life now. I understood I would not be where I am now, if that stuff hasn’t happend.

so one of the things that I know in the moment; I am, and I guess I will stay for a while, a polyamore person. I am totally fine with every feeling a person i love has for anyone else. In the opposit, I am so glad when my beloved ones find others that show them appritiation and love. So I asked life to please finally show me how it feels to love more then just one person in a romatic way, without present complications. I have of cause loved a few more people at once. Also all my boyfried had to get along with you :D you maybe didn’t know, but all of them in the start of our relationship, get to hear from me, that I’m not monogam and then for easier understanding, i told them all about you; this love, that will never appear like this again and about the deep connection the unconditioned love that’s allways feeling the same. So the last year I have completly been on my own. I had a sexual interaction with a very nice friend of mine for three times, but just a friedship thing.. It anoyed me sometimes, but most of the time it has been very good for me to learn to make myself really happy and to not put the burden of doing it on anyones shoulder. Of cause, it is still hard to just not wish for something. Just accepting, appreciating and loving the presens. I asked at the end of 2017 in my diary, for please finally learn how to make myself happy. So in 2018 life did exactly showed me that.. The hardest times I have in the end successfully survived with a smile. It’s unbelivably for me I did that, you know best in wich mental constitution I have been in life actually..

so right now life seems to answer my question of how to handel more loved ones with no complication at one time - after I did very intense asked for finding someone to love, thats loves me too.. I have minimal struggeled with it. Cause in a time of maximal 8 weeks, there had been so many dudes in my life. And what surprised me most ist that life even gave me a few new friends, that are amazing persons, but I do still have no bit of romantic feeling for them. So I have came to the point, that there are probably 6 or so man that I do really have adoring feelings for, but can extrem clearly seperate them. it is very confusing, because I know already, that maybe I won’t even get my wanting for loving interactions with them satisfied. but I really don’t give a fuck. I am super surprised how many of my trauma and conditionings I could dissolve in the interactions with this loves and seem to be leanrpartner of mine.. it is interesting how the “normal stuff” that ones made me struggle so much with myself, like getting no answer, beeing said I do not have to sleep alone that night and then still getting no visit, writing stuff that I am after sending immediately are ashemed of ...... this list goes on.. stuff like that still happens a lot to me and even though there seem to be so many interesting “love exchanging” partners, I am mostly alone, with none of them... And I am so surprised, I am just cool with all of it. I am so so very thankful, for having the chance of loving so many wonderful persons at once and every time I see or hear from them, I am one of the happiest beings, that all has found it’s space like that just for a little while and I can have time with a person I adore so much right now. I’ve lost all the bad thoughts ‘bout myself.. It’s crazy.. I’m not condemning myself for being so “slutty” with my love. I am not feeling bad for sending textes I could really have formulated like a humen being and not like I did ( :D ), I am really living the moment a lot more then before and when some special experience is present, I am very fast at realizing and enjoying it. I made giantic steps in that point over the last 4 years and it still is very hard to do positivly present myself like that..