#ooooooooooooh

Con...I... you said that you wouldn't hate me, right? So it doesn't matter if they lied to me. I have to tell you the truth. What I said earlier, about the anons lying? I was the one lying. I... was just so scared, so scared that you'd leave or that things would never be the same between us, I never even imagined that you-

(*He leans towards Dices, feeling as though he must be dreaming. They're both so red in the face, they both look like they're about to cry)

I- I'm in love with you.

.....Hahah, you ain't gotta say that. I know you just don't wanna see me upset, but this is just too fa-

(*Dices promptly shuts him up with a kiss. It's rather clumsy and probably not very good, but he doesn't care)

Oh, you aren't- you really-

Don't cry!! I understand why you thought I was lying...I did lie to make sure you wouldn't be upset earlier... Oh, I've been wanting to do that for so, so long.

(*Con laughs a bit, it's rather weak, but very genuine)

Not as long as I've...I didn't even say it back, shit- I love you like that too.

Sorry. I really, really didn't want to hurt you. I just wanted to be sure that I wouldn't lose you, I couldn't risk it. I shouldn't have lied. I'm so sorry, now I just really want you to be okay. I've always wanted you to be okay, more than anything, and if me feeling that way would mess things up, then, well, I was ready to never say anything.

No, don't apologize, please! I'm alright now, better than alright!

(*Con leans in for another kiss. This one's significantly better.)

I can just do this whenever now! :)

@honeyfestival , from ophelia : "hey, look at me. i’m listening. you can tell me anything."

he can't. and he knew it wasn't entirely fair to anyone, there are things that he couldn't keep from his family no matter how hard he tried. because they knew him. but they couldn't know, they couldn't begin to understand the shit that he's been through. pete's a teenager and mood swings are par for the course, some days are better than others, but he's done unspeakable things. he's lost two of his best friends. he's been trying as hard as he can to throw himself back into school, distract himself with the idea of finally, finally getting out of town with a scholarship, preferably a full-ride, that'll take him anywhere out of here. it isn't entirely healthy, but hey, at least he's alive, right?

7 & 21: Asked and answered! :D

36. What fanfic of yours has the symbolism you're proudest of?

I can't think of the last fic that I used that was heavy on the symbolism. I know I used to enjoy doing that a lot, but if I do it at this point, it's unconscious 😅