#oofda

to be cherished by someone I love and respect, who sees who I am and my value and capacity for good and in how many beautiful ways I am gifted (even if soft or trite, etc)

Wowie has the last few years been one whirlwind after another, eh? Me too, I feel ya! Due to world events as well as personal, I took a pretty extensive break from most social media. A brief update of the good and the bad of what led me to go on standby in the first place:

I think everyone can attest that the pandemic had some sort of effect on their lives. While it did impact mine like my job and mental health, it hit the hardest when my step dad nearly died from it. The wonderful news is that he’s made a remarkable recovery! Our family is still struggling with some of the lasting effects both physically and mentally, but overall, we’ve come out of this fighting and that’s what we’re gonna keep on doing. I’ve made a deeper connection with my step dad which I am so very grateful for.

I’ve also made new friends! I became the DM for a D&D game and we’ve been playing for about a year now. The group is hella chaotic both in person and in character and that makes for some wild shenanigans. 

For a while I wasn’t drawing because my chronic health issues were getting the better of me. I was in significant pain all the time and couldn’t focus on anything, and even if I had the mind to, my body couldn’t handle it. I’ve since found some incredible physicians that while I wish I could have found years ago, I’m thankful to have found them now. I may not be pain free but I’ve been able to manage it much better. Which also means, that I’ve been getting back into the swing of things and drawing more. (I spoiled myself and saved up for a surface pro 8 and it’s incredible to draw on!)

I bounced from place to place as I always have in my life, but I have been working since last year to find a way to get a house. Which isn’t easy if you’re broke af, single, and queer/trans. Especially when the housing market and interest rates is at a record high (just like eevvverything else it seems). After throwing in offers and getting beat out, having several offers accepted but too many negative marks on the inspection, months of house searching. I think I’ve finally managed to find something. There’s an agreement but I’ve also learned to be cautiously hopeful even when things by all other means appear certain. 

Solas: *says something rude and patronizing about the Dalish 40 hours into the game*

Me: