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the haunting of hill house.  /  accepting.  /   @beforewecrash

SAM  DOESN’T  LOOK  VERY  GOOD.  and  for  the  world  they  live  in,  that  was  a  testament  to  the  sort  of  treatment  he’s  endured–the  bar  for  acceptable  was  low  enough  to  step  over,  more  alive  than  dead,  a  little  less  haggard.  he’s  broad,  but  waning,  all  the  skin  pulled  tight  around  his  neck  and  his  jaw,  his  heavy  shoulders  doing  no  favors  to  the  gaunt  duct  of  his  ribcage  and  belly  practically  sallow.  ellie’s  got  nimble  fingers,  and  though  her  stitch  work  is  crude  and  could  be  a  little  tighter,  sam  hardly  feels  the  needle  going  in,  or  the  tug  of  the  clear  fishing  line  closing  the  rift  of  a  open  wound  gone  to  the  precipice  of  infection.  like  he  was  some  live  experiment,  festering  with  sores  and  marks,  pushed  to  the  edge  and  brought  right  back  for  the  satisfaction  of  a  man  that  succored  his  pain  like  some  sweet  honey.  

but  pain  wasn’t  sweet.  blood  mars  the  tips  of  ellie’s  fingers,  all  bitten  with  callus  and  chipped  nails.  sam  woozily  realizes  its  his  own,  and  thinks–theres  something  about  that,  something  special,  something  close  to  gentle.  she  was  kin,  and  there  it  was,  written  all  over  her  hands.  

he  shuffles  where  he  sits,  and  ellie  narrowly  avoids  clipping  flesh  that  hasn’t  been  numbed,  her  jaw  setting  with  a  quiet  huff  that  vents  some  startled  frustration.  sam  would  apologize,  but  he  thinks  it  goes  unsaid;  he’s  never  been  a  very  violent  man,  a  very  cruel  man,  wrapped  up  in  his  masculinity  like  some.  like  many.  the  thread  ties  off  with  a  tugging  snip,  a  pair  of  old  wool  shears  (it’s  all  we  got,  who  had  said  that?)  nipping  precisely  at  the  rigid  spool.  

✿ and so, they were both tops

send me a  ✿  and i’ll fill out the template below. bold for things i could definitely see or want, italics for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i don’t want or cannot see.

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other .

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other .

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other .

Youth in Toronto | 2018.11.09