#ooc viewing

✍: For what my muse has written about yours in their diary.

eerrghghhghfhghghghghfgfffffuckignsdgjodgn why am i even *following* still. at least she hasnt come into my activity box again but i still have to see her shitty lame posts and its so second-hand embarrassing but also if i unfollow itll be like hiding??? bleh.

also my theme was prettier than her theme. i wore it better. and had it first. and yeah so.

i am too petty oh my god im just embarrassing myself reading my own damn entries???? uuuuughhhh i started it im surprised nobody said anything about it. i cant think of any more groany onomatopoeia. objectively speaking i was kind of mean and the right thing would be to like say so??? but i dont wanna. *groan onomatopoeia*

✍: For what my muse has written about yours in their diary.

bbbbblllllllllllll i cant ***always*** tell when hes joking so i hope its always cuz id feel like a dumbass otherwise. we are so mean.

its hard to tell what he thinks about my intelligence overall tho i dont think he thinks im stupid like i know he does not because hes said so before but then sometimes he acts like he thinks i am like when he says i wouldnt understand something or acts like he knows better and its INFURIATING SOMETIMES but probably a little true but also fuck that?? eeehhhhhhhhh and its mostly my fault for acting stupid on purpose and making jokes about it cuz then it normalizes it so i should just start acting how i actually am then maybe he wont accidentally believe im stupid

not that he should since i found and acquired the most parts out of all of us without help for the first few months while they were doing heck-all

but then i already know he doesnt really think lowly of me so why does this bother me at all when it didnt used to?