#ons chapter 120

Ok, everybody sit down because the only reason I didn’t mention this was because my dumb of ass self didn’t actually know what ‘lewd’ means, and so I read in a rush this part like “oh ok”. It didn’t sound significant.

First: Yuu doesn’t sound like the type of guy who has this kind of thoughts lol I don’t know if he is asexual or something else, but at least it is clear that he knows about sexuality. We don’t have references in the past that he has sexual desires and of course being a shounen we also don’t have reasons to get into this kind of topic, and sometimes we don’t have clear access into Yuu’s mind. It’s open up for discussion, and I’m really divided by this matter but personally I’d headcanon him in the ace spec.

Second: He probably wasn’t joking. It was a genuine question because he is at a loss since all his desires didn’t seem strong enough. I mean, look at his face in the last panel lol

Third: If he were to have sexual thoughts, GOSH WHAT COULD IT BE . No, seriously, it is my turn to make this into a genuine question. I don’t believe this is from the author’s part something as simple as his question actually was. As a long time reader and as a writer, things in stories are meant to have purposes. Even the silly ones. It could have been the idea of a joke only, but it’s already been some chapters where the relationship between Yuu and Mika have been strongly weighted and differentiated from the others. Especially from a Yuu point of view. We are led to understand up until now that the main focus of his thoughts is MIKA.

I know this may sound obvious to most of you, but the only conclusion given context I can come up with, is that Yuu’s “lewd thoughts” would have been directed towards Mika, and this silly line was actually to make it a little bit more obvious, a stronger hint that Yuu has actual sexual desires concerning Mika. This is the same chapter that Yuu admits out loud Mika is “really pretty”, mind you.

Shinoa seems sincere, which makes everything worse.

This chapter confirms what we’ve seen when Mika “died” 2 years ago: the squad talks about being Yuu’s family, but their actions betray them, and to an extent Yuu probably knows.

Hell, when it comes to Shinoa, her own words betray her. Talking about loving Yuu, and then not only not caring about his pain when he loses the person he loves, but even worse talking about killing the person Yuu loves… to bring Yuu back?

Mika protected her, because he knew Yuu cared about her and the squad.

Mika tried to respect Yuu’s feelings for everyone.

Mika tried to tell Yuu to find love somewhere else (and to return Shinoa’s feelings), not obsessing over him, and to just let him die.

Mika's always been Yuus top priority though, from the very beginning until now. He was the one that gave him a purpose/meaning in life when they were kids; avenging Mika (and his family by extention) became his reason for living after that; and later when he found out Mika was alive, what he cared about most of all, was to save Mika and to find a way to turn him human again. Throughout all of this and Guren really thought he had him, he thought he might have a chance of succeeding. But he failed completely.

Hello everyone, after slacking for quite a time and pondering whenever to continue or not, @black-sapphire57​ (thank you for always giving me that push to continue!) Let’s talk about one thing the fandom, or rather part of the fandom that is more focused on two characters got triggered about.

P.S: Theories are held within a neutral view and ships are excluded

Shinoa as a character has been popping less in terms of how right now the screen time has been focused for quite several chapters about the past of Mika and Yuu; and of course, there are two things I’d love to discuss.

1. The oh so called love confession

Under the most popular insight, we have chapter 118 on which after a long battle between Asuramaru and Yuu; ultimately Yuu wins, of course, in the outside world, it seems more akin that he’s dying and we have that famous panel on which Shinoa cries and begs for Yuu to stop.

Image taken from Chapter 118

One of the things many people gave insight was that ShInoa was confessing her love to him, that she was pouring her emotions to see what he’d say; but, is that really the case? Is that a fact?

In fact it’s not. Why? Is it a delusion? Is it a denial?

The answer is actually more simple that what it seems like and it retorts to something more primal and common which in fact, we tent to experience a lot as human beings in general, what could it be?

Correct, the fear of losing someone we love and care about.

This is something the manga portrays so much, everyone fights to protect what they hold dear even if they have to do wrongs or even if they have to go towards a path of self destruction but, the thing all characters fear is losing someone forever.

The connotation here or rather the scene that takes place is that Shinoa finally found a place she could call home and a group of persons she could label as family, and of course, the one who taught her that was Yuu no less. But why did she tell him to leave without her?

Shinoa knows pretty well that Yuu’s destiny right now is sealed in stone; she knows that the further he dives into the abyss, the further he’ll ever reach the light of the sun. This means, she’s aware that Yuu’s life is a stake and this is well known since chapter 72:

Image taken from chapter 72

And that is something certain, Shinoa is aware that the constant abuse of power only fractures Yuu’s body; the issue with chapter 118 reflected the fear of seeing someone she cares about to fade forever.

But why do I refer this to something primal or normal among humans?

When the bonds forged with time shatter due to the unexpected death, the first thing that comes is denial, pain, sadness, grief and ultimately pleading for the person to not go. A wish for a miracle is the factor that people seek. In Shinoa’s case, despite her being in love with Yuu, her wish is to see him alive instead of dead.

But now, let’s talk about another interesting point that triggered the fandom.

2. Shinoa’s resort of killing Mikaela

Image taken from Chapter 120

Something rather doubtful to some extent considering that Mika is a demon, The only way Shinoa could actually kill Mikaela would be literally taking away Yuu’s cursed gear which, considering the huge gap of power between both, it’s close to impossible that this scenario happens. 

Therefore, why did she state that? Is it as how the fandom says that she’s angry Yuu rejected her?

No, this doesn’t even involve sentimentalism or romantic feelings, 

What do I mean? 

For that, let’s make some memories, who is Shikama trying to resurrect? Who is Yuu trying to resurrect mainly?

Of course, Mikaela.

Image taken from Chapter 113

Chronologically speaking, this takes place way before the vampires were a thing; it was a moment on which it was only Yuu, Shikama and the corpse. How can I say that? Do I have proof? I do.

One of the small details that the chapter gave insight of, is that the time the conversation took place was back when vampires weren’t even a thing; it was a time on which the journey was only about Shikama and Yuu trying to resurrect the corpse of Mikaela. It is the first path on which Shikama finds out he needs “SACRIFICES”.

Eventually population would rise and he’d have his apostles who would later see Yuu as the “sacrifice” to bring back Mikaela back to life:

Image taken from Chapter 106

Indeed, in order to bring Mikaela back to life, Yuu must be the sacrifice. 

Though, there’s one big issue and detail that many might have forgotten, what could it be?

Correct. Shikama’s plans have changed ever since chapter 103:

Image taken from chapter 103

Therefore, what’s Shinoa actually trying to say with “even if I have to kill Mikaela”?

If Mikaela’s resurrection were bound to happen; first of all:

-Humanity would be further punished, which is something confirmed by the Progenitors for sure

-Second, all this “planning out something from Yuu for the greater end or killing and we’ll revive them later sounds quite interesting that he is so confident that his idea will happen” but, there’s just a tiny huge detail that seems to elude everything and that is him of course:

Image taken from chapter 117

Despite Yuu being free of the supposed shackles from the First Progenitor and to some extent having his own authonomy, Shikama found it ironic and funny:

Image taken from chapter 117

In the ultimate case Yuu manages to resurrect Mikaela, there are two questions that linger in the air since there’s nothing certain towards Yuu’s fate.

1. Once Mikaela is brought back, who’ll be the one waking up?

2. Will you die or will he become a source of power? After all Shikama’s plan does involve keeping them together for such goal.

In the ultimate case Yuu’s life would be endangered to be used and Mikaela Hyakuya would disappear and the one being brought back was the Son of Shikama, then it would be logic for her to say that saving Yuu is a priority even if it means killing Mikaela.

Another theory awaits, hope you enjoyed this analysis and theory dear readers, feel free to share your thoughts, after all, there are topics to discuss.

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Partners in crime

- Yuu saying Angel Mika was pretty, straight to Mika's face :) That's it, he was always mesmerized if anyone has any doubts;

- Mika and Yuu becoming true partners in crime (as in murderers, you know);

- Guren and the others bitching about Yuu going low, but it is Guren who decides to use a child as SHIELD just to see if Yuu is a monster. Yeah, Shinoa squad. Are you sure Yuu is the devil one?

- Shinoa saying she will kill Mika to bring Yuu back. Lmao Atp it's clear nobody in the squad truly understands Yuu. They STILL underestimate Mika's importance and meaning to him, and obviously they never gave a fuck about Mika;

- Yuu finally turning his back on Guren, saying he will kill him and the others if they decide to follow him. Not that death has any big meaning to Yuu right now, since he is convinced he can revive anyone he kills. Still, it is a difference, huh.