I’ve been thinking...
We were doomed from the start. When we first started dating you were too scared to be in a relationship and I calmed your fears. What I should’ve done is seen the red flag and been like you want to go, then go. We were doomed from the start because you already had issues. You were already broken. Or maybe this entire time you just wanted her. Whatever the case we didn’t stand a hand because you were never fully with me. You never gave me a fair shot. You never gave us a fair shot. I shouldn’t have tried to put the pieces back together. I should have seen that we were going to have issues. And I should’ve seen that you didn’t actually want to be with me. You liked the idea of me. Someone stable and who was there for you. But you wanted that in someone else. I should’ve just let you walk the first time you freaked out. Instead I was there for you. I turned my back on my family and friends for something that was dead in the water. I turned my back on everything. For what? I would have loved you forever and been perfectly happy with you. But you just couldn’t let that happen. And now, the only person who actually loved me unconditionally (besides my family) is dead and I would give an ungodly amount of anything to get just one minute with her again. You took everything. And what’s worse... I let you.










