Another R.I.P. Post.
M NOT WRITING THIS TO BE DEEP OR TOO INTROSPECTIVE. THERES NOT MUCH OF A STORY TO TELL FOR ME BUT IM IN FUCKING SHOCK BRO. WE PLAYED BASKETBALL ON THE SAME TEAM SINCE 6TH GRADE UNTIL HIGH SCHOOL. WE DEFINITELY WERE ON OPPOSITE SIDES OF THE SPECTRUM. I DONT THINK I EVER HAD YOUR RESPECT ON THE BASKETBALL COURT BUT YEARS LATER I COULD FEEL YOUR CURIOSITY, INTEREST AND A NEW LEVEL OF RECOGNITION FROM YOU. EVEN THEN I KNEW A LOT OF PEOPLE DOUBTED YOUR MUSIC. YOU HAD YOURE OWN CHALLENGES IN THAT AREA BUT I GAVE YOU MY RESPECT ODDLY ENOUGH (ASSUMING ID FEEL BITTER OR BE ON SOME HATER SHIT BUT NAH). I COULD TELL YOU TRIED TO FIT YOURSELF IN ANY WAY YOU COULD, JUST LIKE ME YEARS AGO ON THE BASKETBALL TEAM. ITS JUST SO TRIPPY BRO. I SEE ALL THESE RIP POSTS AND NOT A SOUL TAGGED YOUR MUSIC OR EVEN PLAYING IT IN ANY VIDEOS. I THINK JUST PETEY TBH. ANYWAYS BRO THIS IS JUST AWKWARD FOR ME, BUT I STILL HAVE MUCH LOVE FOR YOU. BELIEVE IT OR NOT YOU (AND THE REST OF THE BLUEJAYS) PLAYED A BIG PART IN MY SENSE OF SELF, BEING THE REASON I WAS SO FEARFUL, OVERCOMING THAT SAME FEAR AND SO MUCH MORE I COULD GO INTO. I NEVER TALK ABOUT THOSE DAYS THEY WERE THE HARDEST OF MY LIFE. BEING SO YOUNG AND ALONE. I DID LOOK UP TO YOU IN A SMALL WAY. YOU HAD EVERYTHING I TRUTHFULLY DIDNT AT LEAST ON THE SURFACE. THE FRIENDS AND FAMILY SUPPORTING YOU FROM SIDELINES, WATCHING YOU SAVE OUR TEAM FROM COUNTLESS LOSES. YOU WERE OUR HERO AT THE TIME. ITS SO CRAZY TO THINK ABOUT. NOT YOU OR ANYBODY ON THE TEAM UNDERSTANDS THAT I LITERALLY WATCHED IT ALL. MAYBE THATS WHY IM SO BLOWN AWAY. BUT THROUGH ALL THAT IVE COME TO REALIZE THAT YOU AND I WERENT SO DIFFERENT. AFTER ALL IF IT WASNT FOR YOU AND THE REST OF THE TEAM I ABSOLUTELY WOULD NOT BE WHO I AM TODAY WITHOUT A DOUBT. THANKS FOR GIVING ME A HARD TIME SERIOUSLY. LOL.
IM HAPPY WE SOMEWHAT RECONNECTED THANKS TO SONNY. I HAD FUN SHOOTING VIDEOS FOR YALL AND EVEN DOING THE PHOTOSHOOTS. I TRY TO TELL FIRETEAM WHATEVER YALL NEED IM DOWN IM NOT THE BEST SUITED OR TRAINED BUT I AM ALWAYS WILLING TO WORK ON SOMETHING AND IMPROVE FOR THE GREATER GOOD ESPECIALLY MUSIC RELATED THINGS. BUT ITS OKAY I SAW YOU AGAIN IN ACTION INA DIFFERENT LIGHT AND I THINK THATS ALL THAT MATTERS. AT LEAST IT DOESNT FEEL LIKE YOURE AGAINST ME ANYMORE. MUCH LOVE TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. MAYBE WE CAN MEET AGAIN ON COMPLETELY NEW LEVEL AND PLANE OF EXISTENCE.
SMOKE WEED, DRINK WATER
MAN IM LOOOKING FOR THE VIDEO WE DID TOGETHER AND I CANT EVEN FIND IT DAMN.
