One of them (probs Pen) getting so jealous she sprouts out she is in love with Schneider
Group therapy leads Penelope to an epiphany about her feelings for Schneider
âPenelope, we havent heard from you yet.â Pam kept her voice admirably neutral.
âI donât got a lot to say.â Penelope waved off the group therapy leader with a smile.
More than one eyebrow went up. The Cuban was not known as being the wallflower of the group. Penelope knew that and didnât fail to notice the disbelief on some faces.
âReally.â She insisted âThings are really good right now. I donât need to take the time away from people with problems they need to talk about. Youâve all listened to my problems plenty.â
âAnd we are always here to help with those.â Pam said. "But its important for all of us to take the time to acknowledge and celebrate the good things as well. Seeing each other succeed and be happy is a reminder that its possible for all of us, no matter what we are dealing with.â
The women around the circle nodded at that. The therapy meetings helped them in a lot of ways. They had shed a lot of tears together but also shared a lot of smiles and a lot of laughter.
âSo, Penelope, would you like to share the good things with us?â Pam asked.
âOkay, wellâ, Penelope rubbed her palms down her jeans as she considered where to begin. âAs you know, i finished my exams. I am officially an NP.â
She took a moment to preen as there was another round of congratulations from her friends.
âAnd honestly, its like I can breathe again. So much of the pressure is off; no more tests, no more studying, no more researching the reproductive habits of frogs, as if thatâs ever going to come up when i am treating bronchitis.â She shook her head, pantomiming shaking off that mental load. âIâm not even nervous about doing the job, I actually feel totally confident in my abilities.â
Which was a marvel when she remembered how she used to second guess her decisions as a nurse, asking Dr. Berkowitz for a consult on so many things she wouldn't question these days.
âMi mamiâs doctor is really pleased with her health, sheâs not even fighting me about some of the dietary changes anymore. Elena is an essay writing machine right now, she is raking in so many scholarships for college. So thatâs an anxiety attack i don't have to have until next year. Letâs see, what else⌠Alex has his first serious girlfriend now.â
That had the group chuckling and those who had mothered teen boys expressed their sympathies.
âYeah, I hear that.â Penelope continued. âBut Iâve met her and her family goes to my church. Sheâs a real good girl. One of the ones we would have called stuck up prudes back in high school, you know? Even Alex couldnât charm her into anything too bad.
âMy tax return was very nice this year. Oh, and I tried that tapas place 3 blocks over on Cayuga street with Schneider last weekend! Foodâs a little pricey but the drinks are cheap and really good. We should all go sometime.â
The expected reaction would be for the group to enthuse about a new place to grab post-therapy cocktails but instead Penelope met mostly questioning faces.
âSo youâre finally dating that dude?â Ramona asked.
âWhat? Schneider?â Penelope shook her head in denial. "No, we just got dinner together.â
âJust the two of you?â Penelope nodded in answer to that. âThe two of you at a trendy new restaurant on a date night?â
âYeah, but it wasnât a date. We eat together most nights.â she said.
âAt home with your mom and kids, not alone out on the town. Did you split the bill?â
âWell, no, he paid.â Penelope had to admit, but she was quick to explain. âBut thatâs just because he lost a bet we had."
I donât know,â Ramona said, "still sounds a lot like a date. Do you two usually hang out together when one of you isn't having a crisis?â
Not without the rest of the family around. But for the group, that just made their solo outing together seem more significant.
Jill tried to back her up.
âIt better not be a date. Doesnât that Schneider guy have a girlfriend?â she asked.
âActually, they broke up.â Penelope had to admit.
Jill raised an eyebrow and grinned at the other women, who she had spoken to at length about Schneiderâs attractiveness after meeting him at Penelopeâs place. Then Penelopeâs car was in the shop once, requiring Schneider to drop her off at a meeting. Theyâd all taken a good long look for themselves that night; after that he became a regular topic of admiring conversation.
âSo if he isnât dating her, and he isnât dating you⌠whatâs he doing Friday night?â Jill asked.
The group laughed and Penelope joined them at first but then waved the idea off.
âActually thereâs some old musical airing on one of the Spanish channels that night, he promised to watch it with my mom,â she said.
It was really sweet of Schneider to agree to that. The old films tended to make Lydia emotional with memories of home and her Berto. Schneider loved listening to her stories and was always good at cheering the older woman up with requests for dancing lessons or some gentle flirting.
Penelope sensed the stares from the group again. What? It wasnât that weird for a man to sacrifice his Friday night to keep an old lady he wasn't even related to company. At least not if that man was Schneider. He did macrame with his tenants so they wouldnât get lonely, por dios. Abruptly, Penelope shifted gears.
âBut if you want, Jill,â she joked, elbowing her friend in the side, âI can ask if he is free Saturday night.â
Jill shook her head with a grin. âIâm busy Saturday, what about Sunday? Does he go to worship? 'Cause as we all know i can rock the hell out of a sundress, and heâd look real good on my arm walking into church.â
The whole group cracked up at that.
âIâll take him Saturday night!â Â Another woman piped up. âMy cousin is getting married and a hot, rich guy will make a better date than Tom from the mail room at work.â
âNo one is forcing you to take Tom.â Penelope pointed out.
âYeah but its a wedding and going to a wedding alone is just asking for pity.â she said.
Penelope really couldnât deny that after her own experience at Victorâs ceremony. Sheâd actually been tempted to ask Schneider to be her date to that. So she wasnât sure why it rubbed her wrong now to think of him being someone elseâs wedding arm candy.
âSo, whatâs wrong with Tom then?â she asked.
âUm, heâs not a really rich, really hot, really tall Canadian that i want to climb like a maple tree?â
The eruption of ribald laughter covered Penelopeâs silent reaction.
âHey, he went to your daughterâs quinces right? How does he look in a suit?â
The reminder of Schneider in his suit, weirdly-sexy with that smooth face and no glasses hiding those bright blue eyes of his, ⌠Penelope couldnât help it, she blushed a bit at the memory.
âWow, that good huh?â Jill teased her when Penelope didnât answer. âYou know, I have a wedding to go to in 3 weeks myselfâŚâ
More laughter. These women loved to talk smack and riff off each other. Penelope knew it was an all a lot of bluster and bullshit. Usually she gave as good as she got. But she was quiet now, strangely unsettled by the words flying around her.
âIs there a waiting list a girl can get on?â was asked with seeming earnestness.
Yeah, so what? So Schneider was kind of hot; kind of really hot. That had never affected Penelopeâs opinion of him, or how she treated him. He wasnât some piece of meat.
âYeah, I donât need him for a date,â Ramona stated the obvious, âbut I wouldnât say no to him helping me change my brake pads.â
âMy momâs retirement party is in March. Does he do the fake boyfriend thing, or will that cost extra?â
âCost extra? If Richie Rich isnât paying for everything, whatâs the point?"
The jokes came fast and easy, but Penelope wasn't finding them very funny. What was he, some sugar daddy for these girls to use and discard? Sure, maybe he did stuff for her sometimes that didnât exact fall under a landlordâs duties, but that was different. They were friends, they did things for each other, took care of each other. It wasnât like that.
She tried not to acknowledge the thought, just like she tried not to face the fact that she didnât want to share that with anyone. She didnât want to share him.
Being quiet really wasnât a Penelope trait, so her friends took pointed notice that she wasnât joining the banter. They had been hearing about this guy for years, wondering when or if the two would ever stop dancing around each other. Of course, it is entirely possible for a man and a woman to be close friends on an entirely platonic basis.
But its also possible to be in denial when oneâs feelings start to change.
They had listened over the years as he became increasingly important in her life. And they certainly were not above baiting Penelope into admitting it.
âHey Pen, youâve seen him in bike shorts. Whatâs he packinâ?â one bold voice asked. Penelope went rigid in her seat. âNow thereâs one tool of his Iâd like to borrow!â
âWell, you canât!â Penelope snapped.
âWell, if no one else is using itâŚâ
âHeâs not a gigolo, or some boy-toy for you to play with!â Penelope exploded. "Heâs been through a lot and heâs had too many people let him down!â
Pam settled a hand on her arm and Penelope realized she had been shifting in her seat in agitation. âPenelope, weâre just joking around. You know that. Can we talk about why it bothers you so much?â
âHeâs such a good man and so many people look down on him and treat him like he is worthless, even his own family. I don't want that for him. He deserves better.â
âWe know he means a lot to you-â
âYeah. He does.â Penelope cut Pam off. âI donât know what Iâd do with out him. I rely on him to help me with my anxiety attacks. I trust him with my mami and my kids. I, IâŚâ
She groped for the words, trying to find some way to explain it to these women. To make them understand that Schneiderâs presence in her life was a blessing, that any person would be lucky to have him around. How to make them see what an amazing guy he is. And also why she couldnât stand anyone else getting the same special Schneider treatment she got. Didnât want to do it all without his help.
The group didnât make it easier for her. They could sense Penelope was on the cusp of a revelation. There were no jokes now, no pointed comments about Schneiderâs abs, or queries into any desire Penelope might have to run her tongue over them. They knew that when Penelope got started, sometimes it was best to just let her go, let her ramble and rant and rave until she led herself to the obvious conclusion. They had been waiting for her to work this one out.
Penelope looked around at the expressions on their faces. No one seemed surprised by her spirited defense of Schneider. More impressively, no one was even smirking in that âhaha, got you to admit you donât hate himâ kinda way. Suddenly it seemed like the group knew her better than she knew herself. Like they knew what the denial had kept her from acknowledging all along and knew what she was going to say before she said it.
âHoly crap, I love him.â
Penelope breathed out a sigh at the intense realization. It was a surprise. Of course. When had she fallen for the man-baby? But judging by the feeling of relief, the loosening of a tension she hadnât even known she was holding, it had been a long time coming. She smiled, feeling like another weight had been lifted from her chest and she was taking a full deep breath for the first time in years.
Then her mind started to race again. Her smile fell and when her eyes darted around the group again, they had a slightly panicked look in them. Acknowledging her feelings was one thing (one damned difficult thing), but acting on them?
âWell, what now?!?â she asked in a panic.