#oliviatalks

Book Haul 📚✨

Oh God, Dominic is supposed to go on a holiday with some friends coming Saturday/Sunday and they're going to play this game called Pathfinder for which we have to look into how our character works and all but I don't understand the game and I'm terrified that I might screw this up for him by not gathering any information since I don't know anything about it ,_,

I'm sorry if I use less punctuations but I tend to do that whenever I'm stressed and it bugs me so bad every time because I usually am very "on fleek" with most of the things I do and want to do.... these kinds of situations still stress the hell out of me though and it eats away at me :(

If anyone has any tips for people like me in these types of situations please do let me know because I'm freaking the hell out over this.... plus any extra information about Pathfinder and a human barbarian character (or whatever that means) would be greatly appreciated!! :'(

Today couldn't have gone any more wrong. To start it off with a bang, our night of 'sleep' only existed out of nightmares and flashbacks to the accident.

When we had to go to the place the car was stored Dominic was fronting and had more panic attacks in the car than we could count on all of our hands. This happened when;

they got too close to trucks

when they went to fast

when someone else was way too close

and whenever someone else drove past us with a noticeable higher speed

When we finally arrived at the garage or whatever where they kept the car he had a breakdown when he saw the car again and was (kinda) forced by his dad to get his stuff from the wreckage once known as his car.

Then to finish things off in the morning, when they passed the place where the accident took place he went completely blank with tears flowing from his eyes, without making any other noise than some squeaks. He wasn't responding to anything for the rest of the trip. When they got home he literally ran out of the car, scurried to his room and locked himself up in there for a good hour or two.

Later during the day, after his dad almost broke down his door, told him he was overreacting too much and stuffed a sandwich in the back of his throat, he was forced to go with his brother and dad to walk the dog. Aside from this extra car trip (yaaaaaayy.....) it helped him calm down. When he got back into the car though it was like he just got switched back into terror mode, slowly going back into the state he was in before.. Luckily we were able to help him get his bearings once he got back home.

Now we've spent most of the day trying to calm him down, but we also still have a report to make... Let's just hope he can gather his thoughts tomorrow and pray for the best.

After staring death in the eyesockets again it's hard to tell. This morning we almost died in a high speed car crash, but somehow survived. Now that we've added traveling by car at high speeds to the permanent phobia list, we're actually gonna discuss the last couple of days!

It's been pretty busy. With the internship ending and the report deadline coming soon, we haven't really taken the time to relax. And seeing the amount of work that still has to be done, we probably won't be getting some relaxation anytime soon.

Then there's the new housemate moving in at our place which has caused a lot of commotion regarding the rent and stuff like the electricity, water, gas and WiFi costs. Since the previous girl in that room handled all this, the new girl (Ryshana) will be forced to take all these responsibilities onto herself, which she originally was prepared for. Still, she's having trouble and we're trying to help her to the best of our abilities!

The next thing on the list is the issue of us having no medication in stock anymore. Since we're completely out and his parents have no idea of him taking these meds for his DID, he can't just go out to order them (since he's also pretty much broke at the moment) nor would he even be able to consume them if he did have them. This is also the reason we're experiencing way more unstable switches lately, which can be very troubling every so often. If we're home alone it's no biggy, but in public it's a whole other story. Imagine this guy suddenly stopping in his tracks, finding a place to sit, staring at the ground or whatever for a good 10 to 15 minutes, before standing up and walking away like a completely different person... That's us for the past couple of days. It confused people at the internship so bad and Flereous couldn't give a good explanation for it which was such a huge amount of suck. Anyway...

Other than that the only big thing lately has been Dominic going to the basketball court to play some basketball for at least 2 hours each day for the past 5 to 6 days now. Somehow he kept switching once Flereous got back home and after eating dinner, immediately went out to play, only to arrive back home a few hours later, all covered in sweat and taking a shower, before having Flereous switch back again.... Since we're currently at his parents' place he can't really play any basketball nearby and would be forced to take the bus or something to the other city. But since this would be too much work he'll probably just end up working out and try to improve his stamina otherwise...

All and all he's trying his best, especially after this morning he's trying better than ever to make sure we stay healthy and can truly live the way we want to. We'll try to keep things updated on how the body's doing, since it took a serious beating in the crash.... More soon!