#ole.

March 1, 2024

I have always wondered whether people do read my captions here on Tumblr. This blog has become a back up account of my studygram and for the longest time, I only visit my website to upload new photos then never visit again for weeks straight.

But today is different. Today, I have made the decision to start reviewing for my board exam. I am not sure how. I am not certain where to start. But what I know for sure is that I am ready to start my review.

Unfortunately, I have chosen a terrible time. Earlier today, I scored low on our quiz in a subject I know I am weak at. My four patients in the clinic cancelled on me and I have two meetings tonight. Yet here I am. Trying to squeeze in the time to write this because I know I want some form of documentation of what will happen in the remaining 20 months before our boards.

October 29, 2025 | 4:03PM

It's been a long time since my last entry but you would be delighted to know where I have been.

After months (perhaps even years) of preparing for the board exams, the day finally came. I did not bring my phone with me during the written phase as I saw no use to having it since we are not allowed to use our phones anyways. During the practicals, I only used my phone to book a car ride to and from the venue. Basically, I don't really have pictures of what took place.

September 12, 2025 | 7:42PM

I am less than a month away before my big exams and to be completely honest, I feel physically, emotionally, and mentally exhausted. I want to keep pushing myself but my body is demanding for rest.

One of the many purchases I had made during the review season was buying a set of headphones. I already owned ear buds and buying new headphones felt really unnecessary at first. I didn't want to spend my money on what felt like a temporary need to tone down the noise around me but since I don't usually spend money on cafes to study outside, the cash I do have to spare went to a pair of noise-cancelling headphones instead.

August 28, 2025

For a few days, I found myself weighed down by a one-paged document. I already had an old copy, but was told it is not being accepted for the exam applications. Reasonably, I decided to order a new one only for it not to arrive on time. I then ended up booking an appointment and visiting an office to get it myself.

Originally, I planned to go home right after and catch up with my review. But I allowed myself to stay a little longer--to stroll for a bit, get a cup of taho, and share Japanese food with my brother.

Even though the journey of getting to and from that building felt difficult and tedious, today was more than just resolving an errand. I stepped outside of my routine, was able to secure a paper for my peace of mind, ate a good meal for dinner, and paused for a bit.

As I prepare for the board exams, I realized how weird it is to be in this position; of being in between graduation and the exam itself. It feels like being suspended in between two worlds where you are no longer a student, but you also are unable to fully move forward. In this juncture, even the smallest things irritate me, and I find myself eating more than I should and overthink the littlest things. But I am learning that this too is part of the process.

August 8, 2025

The last time I wrote here about my licensure exam was more than a year ago. Time flew by so fast and a part of me just wants everything to be through but another part of me wants more time to study, to prepare, and to enjoy the last bits of university learning.

On my last entry, I hoped no one who knows me in person reads through my Tumblr not because I don't want to share my board exam journey with others, but because it is a sensitive matter to me--something that holds so much weight and meaning that I try to protect my peace about it from the world. But I guess it would be nice to look back on these words three months from now when all is said and done.

The past few months of review haven't been easy. I had to go to school early to secure a good seat, pay for a space on a study area during our online classes, try to enjoy our graduation season despite the piling backlogs, and now days have been filled with uncertainty on what the schedule for tomorrow would look like.

Above it all, I try my best to pray every morning. Today, board exam results for a certain course were released and the person who topped the exam had a similar name with mine. Earlier this week, I sat on my chair in class and my professor told me that it was the exact seat the board topnotcher was sitting on in every lecture they had. I don't believe in luck, nor do I believe in signs. But I do believe in a one, true God who will deliver me to that microphone, that seat in front during our oath taking day.

You had me 110% won at 'drawing in the crowd with her amazing hip game' son.

I can totally see them trying to one-up each other, even if it means doing public hours with the commoners 'round the streets.

That, and Tyb would have an ace up her sleeve next to her amazing spectral choreography and hips that just don't lie - she'd also be known around the people for her 'healing' and 'recovery' services she offered (for free!) throughout Noxus' various hospitals and hospices, no matter how poor/decaying/pitiful-looking they were. Yes, she did cull the people by offering those that could not be saved/were not worth saving by granting them a painless, quick death,she has actually saved more people than she killed.

What did ElBe ever do for the people, huh!? Show some skin here and there, and otherwise back-stab people as much as possible.

Take that.