Okay, what I just posted reminded me of something.
Okay, so yesterday night I had a dream. My crush from last year was in it. In my dream, apparently, I still liked him and I like.. gave him this note/letter or something.. and asked him to go to some dance with me? (WHICH IS REALLY WEIRD, now that i'm typing it out here (it didn't seem weird at the time) BUT LIKE, i would never do that in real life (LOL it was one of those really corny/stupid notes where i had the YOU WANNA GO WITH ME? and the whole CIRCLE ONE; YES OR NO) but yeah, okay. i feel embarrassed just thinking about it now,,>_<,,)
So I'd built up a lot of courage to give it to him, and he circled yes (;A; ZOMG, I KNOW.) So I was really really omygosh so happy, I remember. Like it was so cute, and I was so happy I'd took the risk blahblah. And then like, the dream like changed and we weren't sitting next to each other like we originally were, and there was this other girl next to me. (I know it sounds weird and sudden when I describe it, but it was pretty natural in the dream (LOL? IT'S SO DAMN HARD DESCRIBING DREAMS) like, it seemed like she'd been there the whole time (which she wasn't.) BUT YEAH. so it wasn't any random girl, it was actually my friend. She's a person I really admire, you know, even sort of envious of. (She's pretty, speaks her mind, etcccc (good at singing/dancing)).
SO ANYWAY, yeah she appeared in my dream. and uhh. she then asked my crush (former crush, whatever) to the dance, and he totally said yes. I was like, WTFUCK DUDE YOU FREAKING ALREADY AGREED TO GO WITH ME (well, no, i didn't say that in my dream. i don't really remember what my reaction to this was, but i was pretty surprised.) so then I looked back down at the note i'd given him and realized i'd read wrong, he'd circled the 'no'. (you know how dreams are, always changing and crap -_-)
BUT THE POINT IS, when I read it, I didn't feel like a sinking/dropping feeling or any sadness at all. (prolly cause it was a dream). but in my dream, i was totally like, well, he said no to me, okay. I'm just really happy I had enough guts to ask him. That I took the risk. Whatever doesn't kill me makes me stronger, right? (those are basically the lines i thought in the dream.) and i was like, now at least i know he doesn't like me, and i can move on. i feel stronger now, after doing that.
AND I FELT HAPPY. happy that he'd said no. it was so weird and too inspiration to be a dream ;A;
but it's totally trying to tell me something. (LOL.) no seriously, though. it's telling me to EFFIN' TAKE RISKS, and whatever doesn't kill me will make me stronger, i don't have to be afraid to fail. because i will have gained something in the end.
don't be afraid to shoot for the moon, cause even if you fall, you'll land among the stars. ♥
now that i'm awake and thinking about it, i'm pissed my friend asked him FSFKDLASJ, and she didn't do it through a stupid letter either, she totally asked him really loudly in that confident way with a flirty voice ;A;
