Breaks my heart for my cousin but at the same time I’m glad they’re calling it off NOW then it being all confirmed.

This is my theory about marriage.

Marriage isn’t suppose to be a tradition, it’s suppose to be a desire a feeling. The feeling of wanting to be with someone for the rest of your life with the bad and good that life challenges us with. See marriage has always been a way to ignore the real problems in life. We grow up thinking that it’s a MUST, if we don’t get married by a certain age we’re failures to society.

I have always been against marriage cause I rather be in a devoted lovable relationship with zero worries about a title. I just don’t see the point of it, I know if I want to spend the rest of my life with someone I’ll just do it without having to sell my soul to some court. In my family, we really haven’t had the best role models. We legit have ZERO marriages in this family that is unconditional love or truly love each other. I know marriage is ridiculously hard ... but if you can’t go through the bumps as girlfriend and boyfriend, just don’t.

coming into 2020 with a slay ass babiiface.

I wish you were here to enjoy the ending of 2019 to go into 2020 together n be unstoppable but we’re already sacrificing our time meaning we getting shit done without even knowing. We’ve been doing that since the beginning and that’s why we keep getting stronger and stronger. Not just as a couple but as our own individual. You’re showing yourself that you could leave a certain lifestyle and live up to what you were truly meant to be. I’m beginning to see what I truly deserve in this world/life of mine. I always felt that I had to do everything myself but in the back of my head I knew i I just needed one hand. See people will automatically think I want a provider but that’s far from it. It’s nice to know that when you think you can’t do it, your person (wether it’s a friend, cousin, aunt, uncle etc) reminds you about your strengths, something so simple. Anyways, besides the circumstances I know this is for the best right now because I need to get my shit together and you just trying to put your mistakes in the past. We got this.

Talking to some people really irk me.

It’s like their lack of putting themselves in other people’s shoes is impossible for them.

Most of them are Pisces. Pisces are very sensitive being and they might have a sensual feeling for others but they really lack of sympathy.

I’m surrounded by Pisces all the time n honestly I’ve dealt with it. I’ve accepted it but holy shit their head are so deep into fantasy. We do not live in a Disney movie bruh. It’s not fairy tales and unicorns. Life sucks. it’s up to us to make the best that we can. For others sometimes making the best of it is not worth it & I get it !