I feel really stupid feeling this way but I do so oh well. my parents have never been loving, for the majority of my childhood it felt like they just tolerated each other. no one was in any physical danger or anything. but because of that I definitely had to step up in a lot of ways and be the emotional support for my mom as a kid, which wasn't great. I always had to tell her everything was going to be okay when my dad was an asshole. I always felt like that I had to keep both of my parents happy and that their emotions were my responsibility. i had to mediate a lot of their arguments and get them to make up with each other. I eventually realized how unhealthy this was and had to completely check out and just not even though I was so used to trying to manage their feelings.
