#nurtec

i have brain damage. i've had two TBIs, and i have epilepsy. migraines are part and parcel with my brain and nervous system, which has been wired wrong for so long that i can't tell if i was ever wired right.

i've learned to deal with it. "that sounds horrible," people say about experiences that are mundane to me. i see the visual aura start and pop an imitrex and some advil. i'd know the purple taste of zofran ODT anywhere, just like i knew the pink flavour of amoxicillin when i was a child with chronic ear infections. i cope.

today i met a new doctor. she saw my imitrex rx in the file and asked me about my migraines. and then she told me there was another option. i asked if my insurance would cover it. she was honest that she didn't know, but she'd fight for me to get this new medication.

it was a good appointment. i got some labs i needed and refills for things, including my AED that i desperately need. she sent me with samples of the new migraine med, which i agreed to try. in the car, i realized i was starting to get a migraine, so i took the new med. i didn't have advil with me. i wasn't expecting much.

five minutes, and the sharp edge of the ache was duller. half an hour, and i was at least as good as the imitrex, advil, and a dark, quiet room can do in a few hours.

it's not a miracle drug. there isn't one. but it's relief, and it's faster than any relief i've ever gotten from a migraine, short of an IV cocktail at the ER. i can function. i'm not throwing up. i'm tired with a mild, dull ache in my skull, but i can sit in the car in daylight. it's good.

I really can't recommend taking this as a preventative because it's so addictive, and no one is talking about how addictive it it. There's like nothing online about it. Nothing about withdrawal symptoms. Just "nurtec doesn't cause rebound headaches." Well it sure as fuck causes something.

I have zero pain today.

I'm not? Dizzy?

I can see Too Well.

I'm still slightly sedated despite sleeping 13 hours straight.