#cronically ill

Insurance: You only need a double dose :)

Doctors: No, you need quadruple. Your prescription is 4 times stronger than OTC

Insurance: You only need half of that :)

Doctors: You will relapse with out the correct dose.

Insurance: You're too young to relapse :)

Me: *symptoms keep coming back*

Insurance: If you need more, you can always buy OTC to supplement your prescription for $80 a month :)

Me: I can't afford that, can't I just get it covered?

Doctors: yes, you need it

you probably dont want to hear this one but I’m itching to tell it! 

Okay so you may or may not know that I have problems with my ovaries where I get cysts on them all the time, and I also get migraines all the time too. for a while if it wasn’t one it was the other and I spent basically 8 months on bed rest only in the last two or so months have i been up and about going to work and living like a normal person sort of.

Anyway I have this sister in law who I have made a few posts about. we work together and she has no work ethic and I currently am doing half of her marketing job plus admin and accounts while working part time to try and get my training business off the ground. ANY WAYYYY she also lives with my mum RENT FREE with my brother and their two kids, and my mum also works with us (DOESNT THIS SOUND FUN) ahhh also they pay for no food or electricity or internet or foxtel or car rego and were given two cars and I could go on for days.

So this week I got another cyst on my ovary which meant bed rest and a whole heap of pain killers at the moment I’m on endone and I’m still in pain. and I tried to work from home all week and felt really terrible bc my mum ended up covering my job so on friday I find out Shanna had the whole week off bc about an hour after mum told her i was sick she said she was having bad tummy pain and went home, she then started telling everyone she had went to the doctor and had a cyst on her ovary. 

Knowing how painful they are I sent her some flowers and a card and said you know I have been through this so many times if there is anything i can do let me know. I myself at this stage would be vomiting if i stood up too quickly. 

So friday rolls around and shanna is complaining to mum that her stomach is in so much pain she cant do anything so mum says well we will go to the hospital than and basically drags her to the hospital only to find out after an ultrasound that 

THERE WAS NO CYST THERE AND SHE WAS FAKING THE WHOLE TIME

the doctor then brings it down to bad period pain and sends her home. at this stage im like okay well you lied and thats something that makes my life a pain in the arse its pretty uncool to pretend to have that problem. but hell she is still whinging about the pain maybe the first doctor looked at her first ultrasound wrong and it just is bad period pain. but then this morning

SHE WENT ON A WINE TOUR WEEKEND AWAY WITH HER FRIENDS. my mum is so pissed after a week of looking after shannas job her kids and her this is what happens 

I’m just so surprised someone would want to be sick everyday i’m home sick i feel like i’m going crazy like i don’t enjoy having to have my partner feed me and shower me when i am too weak to walk and i don’t enjoy having to think of new ways to work my dogs out when i can take them for a run. I really dont enjoy cleaning up my own vomit and passing out from pain, I hate being on new medications to try to help that have crazy side effects, and I hate being a burden to everyone around me, My mum shouldnt have to cover my work, My partner shouldn’t have to help me so much, My dogs shouldn’t have to miss out on their run, my family shouldn’t have to be worried sick that I might need surgury or that I’m home alone knocked out on pain killers, but I guess she didn’t have to deal with any of that she just had to watch telly and enjoy her days off.