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numcnor said: congrats BBY im proud of u

Never had Arda known a soul merrier

And never had sadder one existed.

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Face of an old man he wears,

With all the cheer on the surface, readily given,

While carrying the long forgotten ages

Deep inside, in the depths of his smiles,

To be hinted at when he feels nobody's watching.

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The least wise he was deemed,

Always the least, always somehow on the side,

Yet Ilúvatar held him closest to his heart

Long before the Song began.

Olórin. The Grey one. Mithrandir.

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Never did he wanted to lead, but somehow

The leadership always fell to him.

Never did he wanted to cry and still

Tears mocked him, flowing agonizingly slowly

Down his weathered face as he watched his friends,

His family, fall over and over again.

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Spirit who found beauty in simplicity

And always fought to keep it intact, always for the weak;

He who found biggest happiness in children's laughter,

He was somehow always the last one standing.

Yet his heart lost count of how many times he died inside,

welcome to my world of problems

how lucky you are.

we have seen stars shining for the first time

and grieved for our trees,

knowing what we see in the skies

are mere remains of what once was light.

by the same grief our eyes sharpened,

to be able to catch every little flutter of it

in the growing shadow.

all while you slept.

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when the darkness reached us,

once again we've realized the pain of our father,

who sang us all the way it needed to be.

we endured. we endured and you got the sanctuary,

a blessed sanctuary to treasure and guard,

and it was us who were forced to watch it drown

as your greed corrupted it and your king,

ar-pharazôn tried to take what wasn't his to have.

all for envy, ruin of everyone but a handful,

all for less than nothing. for a curse.

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nirnaeth aornediad, tears unnumbered.

the wounds are still in us,

even after ancestors of your ancestors

have been laid down in this, from then on,

unknown arda. the wounds are still in us,

and at nights spirits of the lost

cry out, singing against the winds

for the end to come and to be free again.

not to have to watch horrible melody

of ainulindalë come to be.

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how lucky you are. how privileged.

you wake and you walk and you fall asleep.

nothing more, nothing less.

how blessed...

and still, still you yearn for immortality,

I have been thinking about this for awhile and today seemed like a good day to finally put it out there...

One of my most special mentors passed away unexpectedly last night, and it really made me think about some of the choices I have been making lately, about my health and my future. 

I really need to get into better shape, to spend less time on the computer and more time trying to figure things out. 

So while I am NOT taking a hiatus, I will be spending a considerably smaller amount of time on Tumblr. You may have noticed that I have been doing that anyway. It's not because I am tired of the fandom or you guys--it is because at worst I have three jobs and at best I have two very steady ones. And I am trying to get out of the area I am currently in and, while I love them dearly, out of my parents' house.

TL;DR: you will be seeing a lot less of me on Tumblr.

If we are mutuals, PLEASE FEEL FREE to add me on Facebook. Just shoot me a message. I will be on FB less frequently than usual (just general cutting back) but will check it more often than Tumblr.

If we aren't mutuals, I will add people on a case-by-case basis. If you've been following for a long time, chances are I will know your URL if you message and will add you.

I will be on tonight and tomorrow night while I'm still on vacation, but things will slow down a lot after that.

I will still do birthday promos but they might be late.

idec anymore because no matter what my opinion people are going to wank all over the place and make me mad

poetryandoldermen replied to your post: i think i’m the only one who’s interes...

honestly I am scared and excited by that at the same time…

queenrowena replied to your post: i think i’m the only one who’s interes...

*whispers* you’re not the only one

I'm so glad I'm not the only one omg I think it's a really interesting thing and idk a lot of people would be disappointed but I think it's kinda great. insane!dean for the win

my friend send it to me and i was like omg how can that be anything but white and gold and then two minutes later it was blue and black and then we looked at it again and it was white and gold again omygod i could cry 

raiiko said: It’s a retina thing Delphi, also based on Luce che hai in camera e posizione rispetto allo schermo