#nullorientation

For me it feels like I was "born" monogamous and sort of naturally changed to being polyamourous upon entering my first polyamourous relationship. Like before being in a polyam relationship, I very much was monogamous, I definitely prefered the idea of monogamy over polyamoury but me and an ex-partner of mine decided to try it out after we both developed crushes on this other girl and she agreed, it went fairly well and my preference just slowly changed.

It didn't feel like a dicovery about myself like the awakenings of other parts of my orientation have felt, it felt like a change. Tho it didn't feel fully feel like a transtion either, I did intentionally enter a polyamourous relationship but not with any intention to change my preference, just to see what it was like. Now I feel like I can't go back, I'm not ambiamourus bc nowadays I wouldn't be satisfied with a monogamous relationship, I'm just fully polyam. Not that I want to go back anyway, I'm very happy being polyam.