#nuclear tw

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🌙 MOON - what is your oc's greatest wish? how far are they willing to go for it?

“My greatest wish— our greatest wish—“ Google had just started to state, adjusting the tone for something the human mind can comprehend since it’s difficult for people to understand all the extensions are him, just for Green to blurt out over him.

“Is to complete our second objective! We want to do whatever it takes…”

So I just watched Chernobyl Diaries (again) and it has a lot of whump potential

A group of people goes on a tour to a past nuclear catastrophe city and they end up strapped in the middle of it because their car is damaged (no one knows they're here 'Cause they used an illegal shortcut)

They end up being attacked and one of them is injured badly (so they can't walk)

The rest of the group decides to go out and search for parts for the car

When they get back the car is missing, just like the people who stayed

They go search for them and end up being cornered by zombie thingys who follow them to the nuclear reactor

Most of the group gets killed by zombie thingys and the rest dies of radiation/killed by the guards

It really fucks me up. 

And it’s because I used to live very close to a navy base (Portsmouth) and they sound it relatively regularly to check it’s still working.

So, back in the early 00′s, we get this leaflet through the door, “What to do in the event of a terrorist attack.” and the whole thing was based on two ideas, number one that living close to the base meant we were at risk if there was a terrorist attack, and number two that if there was an attack it would basically be a NUKE!

This whole bloody leaflet was full of diagrams of the city with the circles on, the ones that say “100% chance of death” “75% chance of death” that kind of thing. This wasn’t the Cold War, this was less than 15 years ago, and I read it and I was fucking terrified. Because we were close enough to the base to hear the siren tests, we were going to be obliterated if someone dropped a nuke on there. 

And I had this whole complex about nuclear war anyway, ever since seeing a piece on water leaking into France’s stockpile, and then the newsreader segueing into a piece on Hiroshima, when I was 8.

And then in school they made us read ‘Children of the Dust’ and I had a full blown panic attack and had to be removed from the class, and this leaflet was like all my worst fears rolled into one.

And then Mum and I went to stay at my Grandmother’s for a few days and I overheard them in the kitchen and the leaflet had frightened my Mum because it had shown her that while my school was ‘outside the blast radius’ it had also shown her that if she was at home, she could never get to me.

And so, cut forward to a few weeks later, and I’m home alone, curled up on the sofa and I hear that fucking siren. And I freeze, and I start to panic, and in my head I’m going “well, I’m inside the blast radius, if I can hear the siren, there’s nothing I can do” so I’m full on freaking out, and it’s still going and I’m near enough in full meltdown in the living room, 13, maybe 14 years old, scared out of my fucking mind that I’m about to die.

And it stops. The siren stops and everything is just eerily quiet, there’s no kids outside, no-one really moving around, and I’m just curled up on the floor of the front room, sobbing and breathing like I’ve just run a four minute mile.

And that’s where I was about 4 hours later, when Mum comes home for lunch.

And every time I hear that siren in films, tv shows, anywhere I freeze and I can feel the panic rise, and I can feel my chest tighten and my heart rate quicken.