You know, for a really long time I just didn't take selfies because....I just felt weird? I still can't figure out if it's because I take myself too seriously or I don't take myself serious enough. . I basically got past it because I embraced the idea that you gotta be your own biggest fan. That's all my Instagram is, really. A big ol' fanpage for myself. . There was this thing about how like, stuff like Instagram lets us craft our own images, our own narratives about ourselves. Most of us are crafting an ideal image of ourselves, and for me, that helped me see myself in a new, better way. I spent a lot of my life being fed the narrative that being big made me stupid and ugly and weak and I grew despite that. Instagram let me build my own narrative, one a hell of a lot closer to the truth. I'm beautiful and smart and strong and good and I deserve good things as much as anyone else. . So yeah. I get why so many people are like "social media is bad for us!" but it's just a tool. And I don't know about all of you, but it's a tool that's really helped me out. . I didn't really have a point here. I'm just procrastinating on the treadmill really. Strongman training is intimidating so for now I'm getting in the habit of "showing up" again. It's going okay!
