I’m almost 21 in a few months. Here’s a list of what I have realized in the past 20 years encountering different types of people and situations:
1. I’ve realized, no matter how hard you try, and you didn’t even have to try in the first place, people are going to treat you like shit. They will empathize with you because you need it, but they will be a different one once you turn your back.
2. I’ve realized that when you push forth your worth, people are going to ignore it, and you will be the one who’s gonna get hurt.
3. I’ve realized that not all you consider as friends will stay as your friend for the rest of your life. Some will eventually turn into strangers. Some that you consider a family will turn into somebody you want to completely remove out of your life.
4. I’ve realized that you only put danger to yourself when you care too much. Matter of fact, you will appear at the opposite end of care to everyone, especially when you are not important, because apparently your care is just one opinion from the billion people that they want to hear it from.
5. I’ve realized, at the end of the day, all you have is yourself, your goddamn makeup and books, your laptop to type on, your homework to finish, some chores to do, and some pillow to cry on. I’ve realized no one’s going to save you but yourself. No one will ever understand you unless they are you. I’ve realized everyone is just as fake as this world. I’ve realized nobody stays true and real unless they benefit from it. And I’ve realized, no matter how many times I cry, no matter how many times I experience pain, I will still find myself alone, at the losing end, even if my intentions did not deserve it.
