#notworthit

Embracing Self-Worth Time for a reality check. Today, it hit me hard. I’ve got a crystal-clear picture of what I want, what truly vibes with me, and what I’m just not willing to tolerate anymore. It’s like this inner compass pointing me true north. Back in the day, I was all about forging those deep connections, you know? But now? Frankly, I couldn’t care less about chasing after that…

I got sick with Norovirus at the beginning of February and ended up missing a LOT of work that month from the virus to getting pink eye to ending up with walking pneumonia, so I've been very financially stressed.

Then I decided to go to a wrestling show in Des Moines at the beginning of May, and my mom had to invite herself along (just to sit at the hotel by herself) because God forbid I be able to drive 4 hours and meet my friends on my own.

I was supposed to go see an old movie at the old theater downtown with a family member, but (thankfully) before I could get tickets, they decided to ditch me. We could have gone a different day, but nope, I'm not worthy enough to spend any time with.

Is it too much to ask that someone in my fucking family would make me a priority just once? My own brother won't even have a conversation with me about why I wasn't allowed to be a God parent to my niece but BOTH my sister-in-law's siblings could be along with my brother's drunk friend.