#notebymyself

It's not just you and me. This pandemic situation affects the whole world. The storm may be big, but it will pass. Be patient. Hang in there. As long as you still have the faith and desire to live, that is enough. Don't overthink about anything. Take care of your health and sanity. Your mental health is really matter in this though situation.

I'm a talkative person. I feel happy whenever I talk to other people. Whether it's serious things, like science, finance, social, politics, or other random things like trash.

What can we learn from trash? We already know that trash is a worthless item which is supposed to be thrown away. However, it can be recycled and reused to make other new products.

If these trash can be recycled and processed into something useful, and people should be more than that.

Problems always exist as long as we live. The point is we need to make sure that after every problem, whatever it is, we have to remember to get up and be a better person. Problems mean we need to learn to be better versions of ourselves.

How Can You?

How can you survive when the only option you have is to “give up"?

How can you love the people around you if they always give you reasons to "hate"?

How can you shine when circumstances “cover” you with dark clouds?

How could you live your life if the society set the “standard” for people to live?

How can you be excited if your greatest “fear” is to fulfill your dreams?

How can you really breathe if you are forced to keep “running”, without the opportunity to fight for what you believe in?

Aku pernah jatuh, jatuh cinta. Namun saat itu aku tidak tau bahwa cinta itu seperti itu. Waktu berlalu dan kau juga. Sesaat dan hilang. Akupun melupakanmu. 

Kini aku melihatmu. Hatiku tau itu kamu, namun pikiranku menolaknya.

Tahun-tahun yang sudah berlalu seketika runtuh saat sedetik kehadiranmu. Mungkin aku merindu, namun terlalu takut jika kembali berujung sia-sia.

Kulangkahkan kakiku dan berlalu. Mungkin mengabaikanmu akan melanjutkan kesepianku. Namun aku tau, menghentikan kesepian tidak akan membawamu kembali kepadaku.

Terkadang orang sibuk merasa sibuk, tanpa menyadari bahwa ia hanya sibuk dengan kesibukannya saja. Namun, ada juga yang sedang sibuk merasa, ketika orang lain merasa sibuk.

Yang manakah dirimu? Atau tidak kedua-duanya?

Akulah yang pertama, mendukung setiap langkah yang kaupunya.

Teriring doa, semoga sesuatu itu tidaklah menjadi sia-sia.

Suatu hari, jika kau buktikan itu salah, kau bisa pastikan, 

aku orang terakhir yang bersamamu di sana.

Tidak untuk mempersalahkan, namun menggenggam tanganmu untuk kembali melangkah.

I remember, once my friend asked me, “how can you love yourself so much and don’t really care when people ask about your weight?”

To be honest, I am not that good. Once or twice or maybe more, I want to be someone else. I want to look prettier, slimmer, etc. But I realise that being more is never enough. There are many sample in society that being greedy will take you nowhere. I pull back myself and learn to love who I am. At that time, I learn the true meaning of “grateful”.

I know I can’t handle what’s on people mind, what they talk about, and of course their feeling about me. I only responsible to handle what’s mine. Rather than being busy to think about why people think, say, and feel like that, it’s better for me to strengthen myself, not affected by the things that make me stop loving myself.

For now, I live for who I am now. Not yesterday, not tomorrow. It helps me to enjoy my time, love what I do, and live my life to the fullest.