#note rants

When I was a kid, no one understood what it meant that I was Hindu.

When I was a kid, a friend of mine asked if I was Christian and when I said no, he tried to tell the rest of class and said he didn't want to be my friend anymore.

When I was a kid, my elementary school and middle school taught next to nothing about India or Hinduism.

Wasn't America supposed to be the 'melting pot' of people?

So why do I have to be shamed or stared at because I didn't realize that people were praying? Or any story out of the Bible?

Why is it that people assume I'm Christian, without ever asking then give me looks if I say I'm not?

hello, hi, howdy. I’m Note. And to preface, this isn’t about anyone in particular, I just have many feelings and wanted to rant about them.

I’ve seen time and time again questions like “why is this character [X]?” or “Does this character really need to have [Y]?”

People tend to think that you can only be one or two diverse things at a time. Hell, as a kid, I was convinced I couldn’t be gay or queer because “I was already indian”. 

Yeah, let that sink in. Culture and media have convinced us that diversity is only one ‘difference’ at a time. So, let’s get this straight (even though I’m not)

I'm creating a for fun project and having anxiety over not having any white characters.

almost every book I've read has had a white character in an important role, to the extent that I get anxious that I'm doing something wrong if I don't.

My issue when writing is that I genuinely don’t know how to come up with conflicts??

I can write an entire outline for a story but have no idea how to introduce a big bad or major conflict

And it’s so endlessly annoying because I CAN’T write deep epic fantasy stories or anything because of it.

Of The Gods, the kids are dealing with their issues, and that’s the ‘conflict’ but there’s no arching central plot

Corruption (A thing I finished before starting my writblr) had no proper story plot? LIke it was just increasingly confusing and endless events that just happened

I wish I could figure out things and do words correctly

I love writing but I just feel like I won’t be able to ever actually write a book if I can’t understand how to develop a central conflict in my stories

and the thing is, whenever I read books, I honestly can’t remember or notice the conflicts, so when I try to reference those stories, I’m lost.