#note rambles

HELLO?

SO I DONT HAVE MY PC AROUND (lies I'm just too lazy to open the files and go through them atm) BuUT!! BUT! I just happened to have my various notebooks around, which I dutifully carry everywhere and ANYWHERE. Meaning that, yes. I do have some wacky tech stuff around.

I apologize for the poor quality of the pictures. They're not even Donnie related, but you can imagine they are.

Spaceships to the left and to the right. Can you tell I love drawing them? They're similar designs, but,,I just love the shapes..

I didn't post a QUARTER of the stuff, It'd probably get too cramped otherewise. Also tumblr only allows 10 pictures--and then I'd be like-oh, I need to explain what everything does in extreme and graphic detail, but there are systems and ways to do that. I can't just...rant. Well, I can. I am. Technically. Not the point.

Either ways, on these pages there are some art studies, but also randomized devices and things that move but would probably sway and unbalance itself to their unfortunate demise were they to come to life. Fun stuff.

Also, these are the ones I've made outside--when I'm on the bus or waiting for the bus, standing at a crossroad...it helps pass the time, and its become one of my favourite pastimes.

I have to learn to be more diverse, think bigger--oh. Speaking of, I'd love to actually learn about engineering itself, so that I can make some of my designs functional. I want to build things, you know? And I want them to look weird and wacky and interesting to look at.

Things that make you question why in the good hell was this a thing in the first place, to be more specific.

Actually, if any of you want, you can send random prompt word or words, and I could try making up something to match! Two words that make no sense next to each other and trying to make it work. That'd be fun. Sometimes inspiration gets stuck until someone decides to kick it back into action. That's what I used to do with this old pc tower. It was cathartic. Anyways. Yes.

yes, writing is hard. yes, sometimes wasting time on tumblr is more fun. yes, writing is hard.

but we write for a reason and rather than beating ourselves up over time we couldn't write whether it was due to physical or mental health, work or school, or you just didn't have the energy

can't we just remind each other that we're always going to be writers, no matter what? can't we support each other with laughter and jokes rather than posts that make people feel guilty for not writing or make people feel as if they're doing it "wrong"?

i love coming up with ideas, it’s so much fun! but at the same time, i really really hate coming up with ideas.

i love writing, creating, and doing everything and anything I can manage to get my hands on but it’s so exhausting.

it’s so so so exhausting. i love new ideas and I want to work on them because of that! but the problem is that I can’t devote all that time to more than a few at a time, otherwise I end up forgetting about my older ones

people that follow me know that, they’ve seen the slow change of focus from one project to the next to the next and to the next

and it’s exhausting

at least for me it is.

it’s difficult to not write or think about the ideas I come up with, or resist the urge to do something with the old ideas that refuse to leave my mind.

I just, ugh, need to get that out because, per my motto create, create violently, I get really passionate about everything and anything I write.

charithram:online...super school villiany...the greek tragedy of reincarnations...astronomy club...the mysterious organization...otherworldly...kickstart a revolution...the suit of spades...elements of change...next in line....

My issue when writing is that I genuinely don’t know how to come up with conflicts??

I can write an entire outline for a story but have no idea how to introduce a big bad or major conflict

And it’s so endlessly annoying because I CAN’T write deep epic fantasy stories or anything because of it.

Of The Gods, the kids are dealing with their issues, and that’s the ‘conflict’ but there’s no arching central plot

Corruption (A thing I finished before starting my writblr) had no proper story plot? LIke it was just increasingly confusing and endless events that just happened

I wish I could figure out things and do words correctly

I love writing but I just feel like I won’t be able to ever actually write a book if I can’t understand how to develop a central conflict in my stories

and the thing is, whenever I read books, I honestly can’t remember or notice the conflicts, so when I try to reference those stories, I’m lost.