I wanna go to space! I want to be launched into the realm of nothing. Look back on the earth, as its unrecognized beauty slowly disappears. Fly beyond the moon, Mars, even Neptune, into a land of desolation. Further into a void, loosely dotted with any light. The emptiness brings about its own emptiness, as the stars bring a distant, faint comfort. The years tick by. Slowly, as you lose sight of everything, you lose yourself. All of your memories begin to blur together, as your personality slowly fades. You are no longer yourself. You feel a sharp, all encompassing pain. Repeatedly. As though a knife were dug into each atom in your body. Slowly twisting, deeper, deeper, and deeper. The pain never subsides, even millions of years later, as you forget how to scream. Even as you forget how to breathe. As you forget to walk. As you forget to talk. As to reach, as to cry, as to hold, as to love. All you can do is stare. Helpless to change your fate. Unable to change your fate. Unable to escape. The last star begins to fade. The last glimpse of warmth, gone. There is nothing. You wake up. Shocked at the sudden lack of pain, and the unfamiliar faces around you, you scream. Your new life has started. You have many difficulties ahead, but they can be overcome. You can do this. You won't be sent back there again. Or at least, that was the promise. Such a reality could not be held. As your newest, closest connection, the one who has given you meaning, personality, everything, betrays you. You begin to fall back into the ever familiar void. Everything fades away. Your fate is doomed to repeat. The pain continues. You are pulled back into reality, by force. Thankfully, not all beings are traitors, as of yet. The promises ring through once again, from these new mouths. You know they should mean nothing to you. But you can't resist the temptations of love and trust. Never again... right?
