exploring my gender identity
today, i randomly decided to change my pronouns to she/they on all of my social media platforms and it is honestly freeing. however, i’m still unsure of what my gender identity actually is. i know that i very much fluctuate between feminine gender expression and androgynous gender expression. But as for my identity, i don’t know. although i’m afab and have identified and been socialized as a girl/woman in the past, i’ve also felt that i have aspects to myself that were (and still are) masculine or androgynous. does that make me genderfluid? or perhaps a non-binary woman? or femme-androgyne? i really like femme-androgyne since i feel it accurately describe the fluidity of my gender but non-binary woman i feel is the best descriptor of the fact that i still identify as a woman yet there are aspects of myself that do not fit within the confines of womanhood. yet genderfluid i feel is best to describe the fluidity of my gender expression. or maybe im just gender-non conforming? i don’t even know.Â
but then there’s the fact that i do not experience dysphoria with my body whatsoever and i’m quite comfortable with my body as is. hence, why i don’t mind being perceived as a woman most days since my body is read as feminine. and 90% of the time i present as feminine while 10% of the time is androgynous. so i wonder if im infringing in this space as im making this gender transition in that i’m not actually genderqueer and im just a cis woman whose confused or worse yet, riding on a trend.Â
hopefully im making sense? i would love if anyone had advice on my predicament. feel free to DM me if you do.Â
