tfw you give yourself amnesia because your parents make friends with a mind-reader and you don’t want to give up the secrets of your pseudo-family
Oh man I was not expecting another ask for the title game so when I saw this pop up I was like. Huh? You gave yourself amnesia? Are you okay? And then clocked that it was MY fic. 🤭
Anyway so this one is kinda messy!!! It sorta has two aspects to it which is like, in a lot of "Tim is adopted early" fics I see lines where Tim worries Batman will wipe his memory. And I so dearly wanted to actually see that. So it started off as "hey how would you write that", vaguely based off a line in this fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/13422138/chapters/31181259#workskin <- with an extra function of Jason/Dick are pissed about it and keep hanging around him and Knowing Things about him, which is VERY confusing for poor tim🤭 (and may be written as a shorter Jay-or-Dick POV drabble at some point)
But THEN when I was writing it, what ended up happening was way more of like, Dick knowing him as a person and thus not being able to control instinctive reactions (calling him Tim before Tim introduces himself, making jokes and references that Tim doesn't get) and Tim struggling to understand a constant feeling of deja vu. It's very casually a mystery-fic from Tim's POV but wildly an agony from the audience POV because as the audience we already/basically know what's going on 🤭
Also I thought it would be interesting to do an actual think-piece esque on Jack and Janet in relation to Tim 'cause I have some really complicated headcanons about his relationship to them! And having him be Robin but also not be Robin felt like a super fun way of having them realise he was pulling away from them, but they don't actually know their kid so they don't know what to do.
Anyway the title for this one is wildly descriptive so I could remember it in my gdocs, but it is, quite literally: Tim going to Batman and saying "hey I need J'onn to wipe my memory of being Robin until this person goes away because I think they have mind reading capabilities". 'cause they're not a Good Person and Tim's pretty sure that they're manipulating his parents and while he doesn't want that, more important is the fact that Batman lives next door. He does NOT want this mind reader to find out and blackmail BATMAN. Tim having to trust that Bruce will restore his memories after, having to trust they'll figure out how to get the mind reader away from him and his family, but also way too Tim for his own good and still attempting to solve the mystery 🤭
“I saw you on the train, before I ended up in the river, I know I did, but you act like you've never met me before,” thud, thud, thud, goes his heart, steady but present, like the beats are counting out each point of evidence. “You keep pretending that you don't know me, but you do - I know you do.”
“And that! No-one calls me that!” Tim's hands fist at his side, and his body's thrumming. “Nobody ever calls me Tim.” No matter how much he'd like them to. It's Timothy or Mr. Drake, both a title, both with a reason to be used. Tim is just- preference. Courtesy.
And who wants to do him the courtesy of Tim when it's been made very clear he's nothing so common as a simple 'Tim'?
“Who are you?” he asks, the question forming a hollow ache in his chest. “Who are you?”