#nonbinary bottom

we want to be penetrated. we want to be fucked, and not just with a physical therapy tool. we feel so many wound up emotions around this topic from both our traumas (especially chronic CSA) and our endometriosis. it felt like for so long it was our fault for not getting pleasure "normally" like other people did, or rather, we felt too much or not at all.

for years I thought we were asexual, but that was before remembering the *chronic* part of our CSA. now that we're working with more information, it does seem like it might be easier to actually accept these feelings and not just that we have vague emotions around it, but it's a genuine need for us! we shouldn't feel embarrassed or ashamed of that anymore, we never should have felt that shame and guilt to begin with.

here's to all people that have experienced vaginal atrophy, and to traumatized bottoms of all variations. we deserve to feel pleasure and enjoy our bodies, just like everyone does. we are not weird or wrong for that.

can i pull your hair? while gently tugging their hair from the back. can i grab your neck roughly? with my fingers gently brushing against their throat and down their chest. can i spit in your mouth? while grabbing their chin tentatively, making them open up their mouth for me a little with their tongue peaking out. then slowly pushing them down. can i bite your ears? whispered into their ear, my teeth grazing their ear lobe. may i kiss you here? breathed into their neck or against their chest, my lips almost touching their skin. what about here? as i traveled down, brushing my fingers over their tummy now. what if i go even lower, would you like it if i kissed you here? while running my fingers lower, closer to their parts, maybe even over them. my fingertips barely touching them. would you like it if i spread your thighs wide open for me like this? while sitting up on my knees and coaxing their legs open, my hands grabbing and brushing against the insides of their thighs. if i teased my fingers along your hole? moving my touch over their hole and circling my fingers over their entrance tentatively. do you want to know how it feels when my dick/strap presses inside of you? while suddenly applying more pressure to my touch, pressing in through their clothes. show me, how loudly would you moan for me? a devilish smile at the needy moan that escapes their mouth and the expression on their face. what if i flipped you around and took you from the back? as i grab their hips rougher than before and flip them around and pull their ass up toward me pressing myself against them. would it be okay if i grabbed your neck while i was fucking you and pulled you against me and fucked up into you? narrated into their ear as i press my hand against their throat and gently lift their body to meet mine. my breath against their neck while i hold them in place, my other hand on their hips, and softly grind against their ass. or would you like to be fucked into the mattress until you were screaming out my name? i growl as i let their head fall back to their pillows and straddle their back, my hips over their ass. maybe i'd punctuate some of my words with my hips, and then lean over them as i ask would you like it if i made you cum until you forgot yours? in a sultry, breathy voice against their skin. my body pressed fully against their back and i plant a small kiss to the back of their neck. and lastly–, i start getting up – how do you feel about wearing a maid uniform? i continue nonchalantly as if i haven't been mercilessly teasing them for the past half an hour or more. okay, great! hey...... why do you look so bothered?

and i patiently wait for each answer and watch as they progressively get audibly needier and hornier for me with my each passing question and touch. until they are rock hard or sopping wet for me and desperately trying to hide it from me, but i already knew and relished the effect my words have on them. so i'd just glance down on them confidently and ask them one last question.