#no labor

Why am I forced to work. I wanna be a warlock

I just want Holden to be here already. I have like seventeen days left until my due date and I'm just so impatient. I just want him here so whenever Ryan is gone I won't feel so alone. I mean his mom is here all the time now because she's recently retired, but I'd rather just stay in my room. I'm worried that I'm going to go over my date, and that I'll have to fight with my doctor to not be induced. I just want one of them big fitness balls so I could just bounce all day. I just want to get him out. I couldn't tell you if sex would get him out because Ryan's never fucking home, and if he is home he's in a bad mood or sleeping. On the positive side of everything after six months of him being unemployed his old boss called him yesterday and told him that he wanted him back (: So now he has his job again so we won't be broke and he won't be gone all day and night doing odd jobs just to make a few bucks.  I just need more ways to naturally induce labor. I'm so sick of hearing "He'll come when he's ready." My mom told me that last night too and if she would have been standing in front of me I probably would have thrown something at her. No shit he'll come when he's ready, but that doesn't mean I can't help him along so my doctor doesn't talk about induction. I'm cranky, bite me.