Chapters: 2/?

Fandom: เขา...ไม่ใช่ผม | Not Me (TV 2021) Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death

Relationships: Gumpa/Yok (Not Me TV 2021), Sean/White (Not Me TV 2021), Black/Gram (Not Me TV 2021)

Characters: Gumpa (Not Me TV 2021), Yok (Not Me TV 2021), Sean (Not Me TV 2021), White (Not Me TV 2021), Black (Not Me TV 2021), Gram (Not Me TV 2021), Yok's Mother (Not Me TV 2021), Techit (Not Me TV 2021)

Additional Tags: Time Loop, Grief/Mourning, loss of friendship, Self-Hatred, Self-Sacrifice, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Blood and Injury, author desperately tries to understand how time loops work, Hospitals

Summary:

Gumpa was fairly certain the breadth of his ineptitude would haunt him for the rest of his life and he knew he deserved nothing less. He’d put Yok in that position, listened to his weak smile and whispered “I’m fine, hia,” despite the nagging in the back of his head that there could be no way Yok was fine, that he needed to get him back to the hospital immediately. It’d taken too long for the ambulance to reach the protest, taken too long to get back to the hospital, just taken too long. Once they’d reached the hospital it had only taken a matter of hours.

He couldn’t understand how someone so full of vibrant life and incandescent love could exit the world without even a whisper. Everything Yok did he did with a bang, and yet he had crept silently into death.

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Thanks for the ask~!

1)What was the first fandom and/or pairing that you wrote fic for?

...oh, man. It's lost to the sands of time and I'm not sure if I ever even posted it anywhere, but I'm pretty sure my first fic was a Fruits Basket songfic based on the Juliana Hatfield song Might Be in Love-- it was several years post-canon, with Tohru returning from a study abroad in America and thinking about getting home to Hanajima. Yes, I've been doing femslash rarepairs since I was thirteenish apparently.

2)Do you participate in any writing events or challenges throughout the year? If so, what do you like about them?

Not for fanfic generally-- though I'm in the Nimona Big Bang now (as you know~) and I've written for a couple charity zines. For original work, though, I do participate in NaNoWriMo every year, which I find a super helpful way to create a whole bunch of new work to edit later. It's great to have externally imposed deadlines as well as a community of other people who care about what you're doing!

7) Which part of writing do you struggle with most?

The way my brain is wired? It's producing words in the first place. It's so goddamn hard to just sit down and make it happen. I have definite activation-energy issues, especially with things I care about/enjoy. Once I've got a draft out, I actually really like editing, re-ordering things, expanding things, it's just putting that first spate of words out there that I find really difficult.

15)A Hollywood producer tells you that they want to film just one of your fics. Which fic would you want it to be?

Hahaha well I have original stories that'd be much better suited to it, but of my fanfics, I think We Sing it Anyway is the one with the strongest film-like narrative arc. Also there's a lot of imagery in it I'm really pleased with.

18)What is a line/scene you’re really proud of? Give us the DVD commentary for that scene.