#njir

You know what guys, I don't feel like I wanna love anybody now. You guys must be surprised when you read this (or not, idk) but lately I don't feel so certain about my own feelings. Well as you all probably know I am now currently falling for a boy who lived in another city, who's also my close friend and a friend with the same taste in everything. But ah, because he's frequently show up and gone from texting me I began to ponder whether my feelings for him were still here in my heart or not. I know you're probably doesn't care about this problem of mine but the heck. I really want to pour this heavy feelings that weighted on my mind ;;w;; Yeah and as I already said 'whether my feelings for him were still here or not' but in reality whenever he texted me I became so, sooo happy despite what subject we are talking or how long it took for him to reply my text back. This is unfair, really. Whenever I say my feelings to him in sentence like, "hey, I might fell for you more" when he did something unbelievably cute to me, he would always, like every time, says "ah please don't give people false hope with your words." What. WHAAAAAT???!! I WAS SINCERE WHEN I TOLD YOU THAT WHY CAN'T YOU TELL OMG HOW DENSE ARE YOU are the words I really want to say to him, with my own voice in front of his face, not by texting him. Alas, I can't do that cause yes, he lives in another city. Now I sounded really desperate.