#nito?

I'm not here to chase my grades. I'm here to chase my dream. I'm stuck here. Two years of college yet I haven't proved anything yet. I feel like I haven't stopped running. I don't know when was the last time I smiled and become so contented that this life is for me. Now that I'm a third year college student, it drives me crazy.  I thought If I'd stay and just go with the flow, I would just learn to love it. To my surprise, I am still going with the flow, but I can no longer find the word HAPPINESS and the LOVE for it in my life right now.  How could I be able to cope with all these changes that are happening in my life right now? When will I ever realize what I really want?  Is it really just me who feels this way, or is there anybody out there who feels the same way like I do?  I made this new blog of mine to see how things are going on with me. I want to see some progress and improvement from myself in the next few years. I don't want to stay and be stuck in where I am right now. I can't bear it anymore. Decisions have to be made. Choices have to take place.