#night21

#ramzan #mubarak #shabebarat #night21 #myideacreation (at Lucknow, Uttar Pradesh) https://www.instagram.com/p/CALIHIHJXVkxhGLxQb24SGFx5w_BlPtah-yauw0/?igshid=1f7ihkttlzlvt

Today's been decent. Not much happened. It's been the EU Referendum voting but I'm too young to vote so it hasn't affected my day. I'm still thinking about her all the time. I just beat the shit out of my leg because I just love her. It's not my fault I fell, oh so hard, for her and it's not my fault that she's just so perfect for me but I can't let that get into our friendship anymore. Literally, no more flirting either. Nothing at all. And in a very flirty person. My leg feels funny now and I think I deserved it because I was being a dick and thinking about her like a girlfriend. I was watching Flash and Barry kissed someone and I was just thinking about kissing her and how gentle and beautiful it would be to kiss her fragile little body and her soft lips and to be able to call her mine and hold her close to me and to kiss her forehead after kissing her lips. I just want things to be that way instead of having to pretend that o don't feel that way just to keep her in my life... I can't even tell her that I still feel like this but I'm not letting it into the friendship. I have to start not telling anyone anything now and keeping my private life strictly private. Again, I hope this post has been alright. They don’t all have to be massive. And hopefully no one that I know will see this. Thanks for reading. If you have any questions, feel free to message me and ask or if you just want to chat, my dm’s are open. I can also answer personal questions if you need someone. I’m no trained professional but I’ve seen a lot and love helping people. Yeah, I copy and paste that everyday.