#nicoxreader

I haven’t written fanfic in about 13 years. I’m constantly coming up with ideas and prompts, but I always struggle to turn them into something real. Since getting into F1, I’ve had so many ideas.

I have a Maxiel that I think would he really good!

I just don’t know where to start.

Beyond fanfic, I’ve had a book idea floating around in my head for ages. But every time I try to write something, my brain completely freezes and just says, “nope, not happening.”

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❧ masterlist

✗ he’s always going to be holding your hand, dragging you to wherever because he wants to show you something. 

✗ watching anime and reading manga with him is a must! those are your dates with him, so expect for there to be lots of snacks, courtesy of him annoying hajime. 

✗ if you’re really into videogames, expect him to ask you to teach him how to play your favorite games! he wants to be able to play with you, so he will spend hours trying to master whatever it is you teach him. 

✗ you’re the only person allowed inside of the infirmary when okina is doing his check-ups on nico, mostly because you aren’t rambunctious and allow him to actually do his work, but also because it’s quite obvious that nico feels a lot safer whenever you’re around. 

I got really excited after that ask and just spend ever since to write this. I merged 2 requests for it, and tadaa! I hope you like it!

Warnings: mostly angst (also fluff) and kinda long (1999 words)

Requests: Hi! I just break up so I need some fluff/angst </3 Can u make a leoxreaderxnico where the reader was in love with Leo before the war and is heart broken when he dies so she grew up close with nico 'cause she understand how is to lost everything? And then he comes back and nico fears he is a replacement but then the reader assures him that she loves HIM and only him & idk fluff ending? It would be so cute if you can make it 💕

ahhhh i love your writing!! can i please request a pt.2 for were you ever going to tell me? it would be great if it's angst to fluff but anything will do <3 tysm if you do!

So, lo and behold,

WERE YOU EVER GOING TO TELL ME PART 2.

- Asnyox

‘Hey, you alright?’ you blinked your tears away. ‘As good as I will ever be.’ You told Nico, while forcing a smile. ‘I hope not.’ Nico sat down next to you. ‘I see you opened the letter.’ He noted and you looked at the piece of paper in your hands. You looked down. ‘What did it say?’ Silence, at least in the outside world. What did it say?

It said that you weren’t good enough. It said that the only person you loved, had sacrificed himself for someone else. It said that in a few weeks’ time he had forgotten about you, and found someone else. It said that you weren’t good enough, that you hadn’t deserved him. It said that he wasn’t dead, but at the same time not alive anymore. Not for you. His heart was beating, not for you. He was smiling, but not for you. He was happy, he was content, he was caring, he was everything you ever wanted, but not for you. Leo Valdez was perfect in every way, and you helped him see that, and when he saw he could get something better, he left. It was only fair, wasn’t it? You didn’t deserve someone as good as Leo.  

The feeling of a hand on your shoulder got you out of your spiralling thoughts. ‘(Y/n)?’ a pained smile formed on your face, as you closed your eyes. But closed eyes can’t stop tears. You faced up, to wherever Nico was sitting, and with closed eyes and tears falling down you looked at him. Nico’s hand on your shoulder tightened as you imagined him looking at you in fear. On the contrary, his hand tightened because seeing you like this hurt him. Your hands were shaking, and your shoulders were moving up and down. You bit your lip to stop the sobs from coming out and opened your eyes. ‘I am fine’ you crooked out. What surprised you was the look of concern written all over his face. ‘You are not. Stop lying. Please’ Nico told you and you felt more tears coming up. Nico didn’t want this. How dare Leo do this to you? He thought for a second. ‘I-I don’t…’ Nico suddenly moved in to hug you. ‘(Y/n), let me help you.’

This was a first. Nico didn’t know what he was doing, and he felt you stiffen. Nico knew that he didn’t hug people often, but Nico felt at ease with you in his arms. This felt nice, not your tears staining his shirt, but he fact that you were close to him. Perhaps you didn’t like it, because you still didn’t move.

On the other hand, you knew that Nico was not the one to initiate physical contact, other than nudging someone. Even though it now felt you were inside warm walls where you could let yourself go. So you tried. ‘I-I’ you started when you just let out a sob. You just started letting it all out. The pain of losing your love, the pain of waiting for him for months, the pain of him not returning in the end, the pain of the disappointment you felt when he was nowhere to be seen, the pain of being replaced. It had all crushed you, and you let it all out in Nico’s tight embrace, as he stroked your hair slowly.

That is how it often went after that. Nico finding you on your own, crying, and then comforting you. At other times you two talked, and you found out about everything Nico went through. At that moment you decided to help him. You did everything you could to make sure Nico would feel happy, and through the understanding you both had of the situation you helped each other at the same time. The both of you learned how to get over it together, and the both of you learned to love each other. And it just kind of went without saying that you two got together. Life was good, may I say even better than before.

Until Leo decided to show up again. After months he came back, and of course he had Calypso with him. You were walking with Nico, hand in hand may I mention, when you saw Festus landing in front of the big house. You stopped in your tracks, and just froze. Was it Leo? It couldn’t be? But there were his brown curls popping up from behind Festus’ neck. Your grip on Nico’s hand tightened, and he stopped staring at the bronze dragon to look at you. The expression he saw on his face pained him. Your eyes were wide opened, and your mouth was shut tight. He could see tears forming in your eyes, and it pained him to see how all the hurt from before was still there after everything you two went through to make you happy again. Nico moved his head towards your ear and whispered. ‘(Y/n), if we go away now you won’t have to talk to him yet.’ You nodded slowly, eyes still fixated on the Latino. You felt how Nico pulled you away from the scene, and you followed him silently.

When the two of you arrived at your usual spot in the forest you two sat down. ‘(Y/n), are you alright?’ Concern laced Nico’s voice. ‘No.’ you answered curtly. Over the past few months you both learned not to lie to each other anymore. It would not help any of you. Nico placed his arm over your shoulders and pulled you close. You rested you face against his chest and let out a small sob. It was no use keeping these emotions inside. You didn’t know why you felt so sad. Leo was back, that was good right? And you had Nico now. Still, seeing the Latino elf filled you with remorse. So you cried.

At the same time Nico was doubting himself. Why were you so sad? He thought you had gotten over Leo, really. Or did he only hope that? Did you perhaps not move on, and just got him as replacement? Was he your second choice? Did you not really love him? You wouldn’t do that would you? You wouldn’t lead him on for this long? Nico knew that he wasn’t much, but you told him that you still loved him for everything he was. And every time you did tell him that his heart would jump. Even now, while all these thoughts were swarming through his heads, just holding you made him feel good. The feeling of his heart thumping like this made him happy, and he didn’t want to lose you now. But before he would do anything about his own thoughts, he wanted you to be happy. That was his priority right now. And if you being happy meant letting you go, he wouldn’t like it, but he would support you.

The next day everyone knew that Leo had returned, and Nico knew that you should go to talk to Leo. He didn’t get it why you weren’t going to though. ‘I don’t know. I just don’t feel like seeing Leo again, I guess.’ Nico stood before you. ‘You need to talk to him. I know you are hurting, so please, just talk to him once to get over it.’ You moved your hand behind your neck. ‘Are you going to be there with me?’ you asked Nico while looking into his dark brown eyes. ‘Only if you want me too.’ A smile graced your face as you grabbed Nico’s hand and walked off to find Leo.  

When you found the Latino, you tapped his shoulder. Leo turned around. ‘(Y/n)?’ he looked surprised to see you, but then he moved towards you. On instinct you stepped back and you felt Nico grab you by your waist. ‘Uhm, hi.’ You said awkwardly as you waved with your hand. Leo looked a bit bewildered as to why you stepped away from him. ‘Hi?’ he seemed to ask. ‘So, you are alive?’ you said, as you looked downwards. ‘Yeah, I guess so.’ Leo smiled a bit as he rubbed his neck. ‘And you got Calypso now.’ You noted and Leo looked down. ‘Yeah, she is pretty great. Too sad she broke up with me as soon as we got here.’ A pained laugh sounded through the room. ‘But hey, maybe we could try again?’ he offered. You felt pain go through your heart, and Nico felt nervous. Nico couldn’t see your face, but this was one way that you could leave him. And Leo was better than he was. ‘Try again?’ you questioned him, and Leo nodded. ‘You know, like before the quest, and before I died and all. You and me?’ you looked Leo straight in the eyes. ‘You think I would want to try again after you left me? After you died for someone else?’ Hearing this gave Nico some hope, while he knew he should feel sympathy for the Latino. Leo looked down with a guilty look on his face. ‘I’m sorry about that. But when I met Calypso, I really thought that she was the one.’ ‘I thought that you were the one.’ Your voice cracked ‘I thought that it would always be you and me. And guess what, you fucking left me.’ You spat. A panicked look struck Leo’s face, and just like Nico he could sense that this was not going Leo’s way. You felt Nico’s arms tighten around you.

‘Look, I didn’t know what I was doing. I am so sorry, let me make it up to you.’ Leo pleaded, but you shook your head. ‘You had your chance Leo, I loved you with every part of my heart. But you broke it, and I am sorry, but Nico here helped me, and I moved on.’ Leo looked at you with a sad look on his face. Nico on the other hand felt euphorically.  ‘You are dating Nico?’ he asked, a bit of sarcasm in his tone. ‘Yes.’ You confirmed firmly. ‘Were you ever going to tell me?’ Leo asked you. Now it was his turn to be sad. You shook your head. ‘No, I was never going to tell you. To me you were dead Leo, I am sorry.’ Leo looked to the side, and then looked up with his eyes closed and a smile on his face. ‘I get it. Nico, please take care of (Y/n). Make sure they are happy.’ He said and he turned around. ‘I promise.’ Leo started walking away, and you saw the sadness in his retreating figure.

You turned around in Nico’s arms. Nico looked at your face which was calm. ‘You alright?’ he asked you. ‘Not really, but better than before. Thanks for making me talk to him.’ You told him and Nico looked into your (e/c) eyes. ‘I am glad that that’s over.’ A small smile formed on his lips. ‘Why are you so glad?’ you asked him tilting you head a bit. ‘So cute’ Nico thought and he felt a blush creeping up his face. ‘Well, uhm, not reason really.’ He said as he looked to his side. You grabbed his chin and made him look at you. ‘Tell me.’ You ordered him. ‘It’s just when Leo came back you were so upset so I was scared that you still loved him and would break up with me so you could be with him again and I didn’t want to lose you or be a stupid replacement and I don’t know b-‘ you kissed him on his lips to stop his rant. ‘Why would you even think that?’ you asked him ‘Nico, you helped me and I truly love you, so don’t worry about it. I would never leave you, I promise.’  He held the most adorable big smile on his face. He hugged you tightly and pressed his nose in the nape of your neck.

‘I love you, (Y/n)’