I’m afraid to destroy everything.
Okay, after more than a week of sulking towards my mother for not buying me the promised ‘goods’, finally, on January 6, 2023 (Friday) and my mother bought it.
I’m happy actually but I know we have debts that needs to pay after this, and this is painful to remember. Also, I am scared that this might be temporary laptop and I might jinx it for being happy and sharing this new purchased good, that this might damage and need to return. Therefore, I will have no laptop to use in the end. I’ve been anxious, LOL.
Anyway, I suppose my plans for this year shall continue (even though I haven’t started anything). I need to focus on my study. I need to sleep early. And I should start my study journal now. Again, I’m scared stil because too much happiness means there’s a payment for it and I should experience unhappiness the next day or later?
