#never 5get

The World Trade Center? That's where Nanao works!!

I still sing this song every so often.  When I’m feeling nostalgic for Glee, or just because.  I kinda can’t believe it’s been three years since it ended....

that’s a lie, I can.  It’s been a lot of things happening, a lot of life.  And looking back, after all the roller coaster’s leveled out, I just, I love it, you guys.

Maybe it could’ve been lots of things, but in fact it was Glee fandom, that taught me how to do fandom, how to find community and friends in it and try not to fight, some of it on my own skin.  That gave me the encouragement to post things and finish things, to start learning how to be a writer, some years after I’d thought I’d given up for good.

(And, oh, other things that I still don’t want to talk about...)

for all the battles that we lost or might have won i never stopped believing in the words we sung

And it comes with its own farewell song!  I’ve been thinking back on it lately - on the lookout for the next fandom, y’know - and thinking about just how much I loved its weird way of storytelling.  Kurt and Blaine and their relationship and lots of other characters, sure, but I never would’ve been caught and stayed if it wasn’t for that use of music, eliding the boundaries of fantasy and reality, of things in your head vs. things said out loud.  I never managed to write about it the way I wanted to, but, damn.  Singing things into reality - !

#art looks how life feels #etc

I want to be that into something again, week after week on excitement and tenterhooks, even though it’s probably a bad idea.  And something’ll come, by surprise, someday, I’m sure.  It’s not like I even read Glee fic anymore, or watch the songs - after I’ve been that into something, I’ve had pretty much enough for a long time, or maybe forever.  Still.

no matter who or what i am i’ll carry where we all began this time that we had i will hold forever