#nerveous

i had a pre-op hospital appointment today, and they told me that this procedure will probably be more painful when i wake up compared to the last one. Great way to calm my nerves. i wasn’t stressing out already being this the 3 procedure for this problem. i wasn’t worried because my last two operations where done at a different hospital when i was young and i never really thought about the risks. i’m not terrified because the last two procedures had complications afterwards and i’m scared it will happen again. not worried about my likelihood of getting an infection because me body loves infections.