xkit: (doesnt catch some stuff)

me: (on the inside) im going to choke on my medicine and purposely take too many os i get hurt and maybe if i get lucky everyone im around will smarten up and leaveme like they all want to so they finally dont need to talk about me behid their back anymore, maybe ill brig the people who hurt me back because they didnt really mean it and i need to be treated the way they treat me because at leasts then i kknew they werent being dishonest?right maube if i finally stop bein so chickenshit and actualy do soething everyone will finally take me seriouslyu and not shrug me off i dont even need time alone to do that? i can run away and do it and disappear and finally no one will be burdened by me