#needsometime

Don’t even know why, but I’ve cut myself off from a lot of good people. It’s not anywhere near their faults. I just feel like their life would be better if they didn’t have to worry about what I was doing or if I’m gonna show up when I said I was. I know that seems super selfish, but I’ve got some self-servicing to do. My mind is playing it’s own game of cat & mouse and I don’t think it’s fair to subject the ones I care about to it. I just wish there was a way for me to explain that I never stopped caring and thinking about them; I’m just in a sort of dream world right now. If I can say anything about Pisces girls, is that our dream world is where we go to fix things, reassure ourselves, and bring our deepest issues to light. I’m sorry to all my friends that I’ve neglected these past few years.

It feels like I haven't slept in days, oh wait I haven't. I try to sleep. I lay down close my eyes and count my sheep but 10 hours later and still no sleep. It's been about 34 hours since I have slept. hopefully when the girls go to my moms I can come back and clean my ass off and just pass out for the whole day and maybe some of the night. I was supposed to go out with friends. I really should go but idk if I am in the mood for a party. I just realized I was crying. I need to get my shit together.