#needlephobia

Bad news: I spent all afternoon playing on my 3DS and now it's 10 pm and I haven't eaten dinner yet and also I need to do the dishes still and I really don't feel like doing them

I'm probably going to resort to eating some fruit and porridge because I don't think I'll be able to motivate myself to cook

Also have the suspicion I might be anemic (especially since I had my period a couple of weeks ago) and I should probably get my blood tested but the thought of getting poked with a needle just makes me nope out of that. I think I'll wait if the psychologist wants to test my blood for medication interaction and just test everything at once so I'm done with it for quite a while.

Needlephobia is the worst kind of phobia to have, I hate it so much. So many important medical procedures involve needles and I tend to avoid them even if it's not the smartest choice. I'm also specifically afraid of the pain of being poked with one so training myself out of it is hard. Especially since not every nurse knows how to handle my fear and me being scared and tense only makes it hurt more..I also get scared as soon as I set foot in the place, just can not stay calm.

Also also still have a lot of things hanging over my head that I can't resolve by myself/cant do anything but wait for a response and I fucking hate it so much I'm so stressed. I hate it when I don't have control over stressors..

So yeah that's my life update for today