Next month I have two great choices to choose from that can affect my life in such different ways and I can't determine which one I really want... On one end of the spectrum is my invitation to traveling the world. My family and sister have been wanting me to join them in India not too long before we would head off to Australia and stay for a couple of weeks with friends before traveling to another country once again. This kind of opportunity is the kind that makes me heart beat faster and for my life to actually feel exciting again. To open up my life and eyes to seeing the world around me. I'd be living the real dream. While we would have places to stay, that translating job that Sarah recommended should be bring in good money in no time to help pay for flights and everything. There's millions and millions of wonderful and great things I'd love to say about how much I want to do it, but there's also some good standing cons in my view too. My other option, is staying in California and getting that job and saving up for things I've been wanting to do for just myself (more tattoos, clothes that actually fit me after the weight loss, and Morgan has been asking about going on roadtrips for the entire summer which I know would be a blast to experience. Also, my good friend will be coming back on leave for an entire month and will be staying with me and spending time together until he gets deployed a month later to Egypt. . . . I wouldn't want to miss out on either opportunity for the world. One end, I'm literally being offered something I've always dreamed of but can also accomplish at any point in my life. But at the other end, I'd be having to stay in California, but I'd be able to make memories I can never get back... This girl has no clue what she wants anymore. Who knew that getting my heart broken and having my world do a 180 on me would leave me with such choices I could never make if I weren't single. But maybe now is my chance to discover who I really am. Only time can tell on what will happen, and I'm finally starting to look up again
