Once upon a time..in lil quite village lived lil girl in a big warm house with a lovely family and a farm filled with animals..
Lil girl loved waking up every morning with the sun raise smelling her mom cooking breakfast, yummy eggs and warm milk.. wash her face and wear one of her beloved sun dresses and run down the stairs with the biggest smile ever, to find her family sitting around the table and waiting for their lil girl.. after that she goes out to the farm with her dad, they feed the animals, take care of them and she loves to play with them.. especially Alfa, a baby horse they own..
Lil girl was happy..simple life, routine life but she loved every sec of it.. One day while she was heading to sleep she heard her mom screaming in pain she run to her room to find her dad carrying her and told her they r heading to the hospital and her aunt is coming to take her to her house till her mom is better, lil girl was in panic.. seeing her mom in pain made her so scared that she cried and cried till her aunt arrived and took her to her house..
The sun raised already and for the first time no breakfast smell, only gas smell and the car moving sound.. lil girl looked out of the window, yes the sun raised but all the houses they passed by were sleep yet..it was a sad view.. then the car stopped and she entered a dark colored house, her aunt house with all the lights still closed only rays of sun is passing by the windows..
She felt unease, following her aunt who seems to be a few words person , till she knock a door an a girly voice said WHAT? oh yeah it's her cousin who was sleeping while the sun is in the middle of the sky and apparently lil girl is staying with her till her mom is better.. Her cousin was different than her, more girly.. good looking, puts lipstick and do her hair daily.. lil girl was amazed by her, she's like s superstar.. all pretty and shiny.. During the coming days she start to learn tips from her cousin, who wasn't a bad person but only self centered
She opened her eyes to a whole new worlds.. beauty and boys.. yes boys.. lil girl dream was to find her prince one day and fallen in love and make a family but now she understand by observing her cousin love life that she must fall in love more than once to find her prince if he ever exist..
Lil girl was curious about love, kisses and everything else.. she can have it all without waiting as she thought once..
But she was still shy and scared so she was enjoying her cousin stories, who she met, who she kissed and how boys tell her she's pretty..
Without noticing, lil girl start devolving feeling for the boy next door as he's the one she sees all the time and he's nice to her, even if she knows he's only doing that coz he likes her cousin but what's that harm in falling for him in her mind?
Lil girl start her one side love story in her mind, meeting him daily when her cousin is going out, volunteering in everything he's in and watching him from her room window every sec of the day.. it's sweet this heart beat. The shiver that goes through her body when she thinks of him, yes she start feeling pain in her lil heart when ever she sees how he looks at her cousin but she remember how ugly she does and that even she won't look at her self so why she's unhappy with he's action, it's jealousy.. what a bad feeling to feel but as long as lil girl see him smiling it's all worth It right? This is love in the end? Seeing the ones u love happy..
Times passed by and lil girl love grow bigger and bigger in silent .. till the day that the next door boy convince his love to her cousin who accept it, lil girl couldn't be,happy, she tried, even fake it but inside she was dying, she preyed and prayed to God to stop this pain, it's hard to breath right now .. and it happen, the door ring and her dad came to take her back home, her mom is better now..yeah her mom she kinda forgot about her in the silly life she start living.. she didn't wait a sec, even didn't say goodbye for him..how could she? Lil girl feeling will shows if she does, so the only solution.. running away and time will heal her heart, in the end it was never meant to be, he was never hers to begun with.. going far far away from him is,the only way to forget him..plus being back at her happy simple life is all she needs right now..
She left and never looked back, reach her house.. run to her mom arms and cried the whole night, her mom thought it's coz she was worried about her but only lil girl knew why she was crying all night..
The sun raised with the smell of her mom breakfast.. eggs and warm milk.. for the first time she didn't feel like leaving her bed, and the food smell make her wants throw up.. after her mom calling her to come down for 15 mins she walked to the bathroom to wash her face and looked at her face and hated every part of it, if she looked anything like her cousin her love will be hers but being her, looking Like what she looks like is a death sentence..
She walked to wear something and all what she got was sundresses which is lame and ugly. Who wear,them? No guy will look at a girl covered in a dress.. u need to show skin to be notice.. how lame is this, she wear a black one she got and went down the stairs pulling her feets .. the house was shiny, she had to cover her eyes, why the sun is do bright? Why the house is full of windows?.. she sat down to the table with her gloomy mood looking at her plate.. what a boring life this is, why did she even leave her bed..
She cant remember what her mom and dad said but they we 're trying hard to blesee her but it wasn't working as she didn't allow it to work focusing on what could be if she was s different person in a different place..
She went with her dad to the far, with her mind absent even lil Alfa could bring her back to reality.. all what she could feel is sorrow and depressed.. why it's not her? Why she's not there? Why she's never happy?
Less that she know that happiness comes in differents shapes and ways.. wanting someone else happiness isn't one of them, if she just hope her eyes,and looked around she'll find tons of reasons to be happy but focusing in one and only one isn't happiness..
Lil girl drawn more and more in sorrow and draw her family with her in it, sucking every happy feeling with her sad unhappy mood, made her parents sick, coz for them she was their happiness and for some reason they lost her, days passed and lil girl blinded with her depression lost to see that she's losing the time she got left with her family.. focusing on negative will only draw negativity.. which here it happened..
One day after the sun was in the middle of the sky she woke up on her dad crying voice.. yes she's gone, lil girl mom is gone and she couldn't remember any memories with her after she came back, that's how self centered she become.. she wanted to live someone else life after being fascinated by it and forgot to live her own life and now it's too late, she can't re live the time that already pass and now she really have a reason to cry over in the future..
So wake up already and live Ur life instead of dreaming to live in someone else life.. follow the sun raise and remember, Ur surrounded with happiness, us just need to open Ur eyes, and see them..
One person is not happiness, he's only one reason from a million other ones.. Lil girl grow up and understand it but after it's too late so don't do the same mistake! Now.. smile (^___~)
