#nctrenjun

I wish him all the best !!! 🥰

I hope he have a beautiful and fun birthday! 🎉

I love him so much!!! 💚💚💚 I hope he have a beautiful day! 💖

  ִֶָ  HU𝖠NG R℮NJUN 

"Okay, class dismissed", the professor announced and I can see my block mates rumbling and just trying to get out of the class as fast as they can. Others were smiling and giggling with their friends. I heaved a deep sigh as I am too frustrated with the scores I got for my exams. This exam is important for the overall grade so it bothers me. 

I walked out of the room with slouched shoulders and passed through the corridors with a head down low. The scores still not getting out of my head. I absent-mindedly walked around the university and I just want to go home as soon as possible. I was taken aback when someone suddenly tapped my shoulders and when I looked up, there I saw Injunie smiling at me. I just gave him a small smile in response. 

"Are you okay? What's wrong?" He asked but I just shrugged it off not having the energy to talk. We went on walking our way going to my dorm. He got used to me not talking especially when I am not feeling well.

We went on still walking side by side, not talking and I can feel he is getting uncomfortable with the atmosphere we have. I was stunned how he swiftly put on one of his AirPods in my one ear. I looked at him, astounded by his actions but he only smiled at me reassuringly and slowly held my hand.

As a note started playing, my heart started to melt like I am about to cry. He played That's Okay by D.O. I was trying to stop myself from bawling out because I don't want to let him see me in this vulnerable state plus I feel like this is just a very light problem to cry on. I held his hand tighter just to make me feel strong.

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I laugh

I have expectations

And I go through the pain

As those lyrics came on, my tears suddenly went falling as my head was down low and I can't face anyone right now. I am trying hard not to sniff because it'll let him know I was already crying. We suddenly stopped walking which made me lift my head to see him, finding answers to why we stopped. But then I realized, we were already here in front of my dorm. 

He just sighed looking at my eyes showing signs of distress and the tears now won't stop falling on my cheeks. He pulled me into a hug, his arms covering me tighter and I just can’t help but sob in his chest. A heavier volume of tears coming out and I just can't understand why I am crying over a red mark on a piece of paper. He continued to give me warmth in his embrace, slowly rubbing my back to give me comfort.

The troubles you couldn't talk about

The spots with deep scars

The time passing at the same pace

Like always, I'll wash them away

So it's okay to live like flowing water

It's okay to be okay

I cried harder as the song ended. "I shouldn't be crying but why do I feel this way? Those scores wouldn't dictate what I have for the future right? But why am I crying so hard over those numbers?" I mumbled those words, at last, getting those heavy emotions enveloping me from a while ago. 

He kept on rubbing my back and muttered these words, "It's okay, that's fine. Your feelings are valid and you are allowed to feel that. I can't tell you to be upset about it but I know you can carry on. I know you can still be better and can do the best because you are you." 

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