#nct readings

Classes went well, work went well, and you were fine. Before yesterday's ruling, you could barely stay awake. You didn't tell Yangyang, but you didn't eat that week. You were nerve-wracking and feeling more angry than sad.

You were also feeling grateful this morning, after your little interaction with Kun last night the weight of what happened hit it you like a tons of bricks.

You believed your ex was a good person, always so nice and well mannered, talking you softly and hyping you work. It was a dream to find someone who shares your passion for writing that you didn't see all the potential red flags in your relationship and on himself. When you went back to Yangyang's room, your best friend was already up waiting for you with open arms ready to hold you while you were crying your heart out.

You know Yangyang didn't like him, but still, he made the effort to be nice to him when you guys went out. The few times you actually got to go out with him and you friends.

"You're not stupid at all, Yn. He was the one making mistakes and acting like an asshole, not you"

You fell asleep with teary eyes and a bittersweet feeling in your stomach.

And this morning, after crashing with Kun, again, your head felt better.

You obviously knew who Kun was, how not to when your best friend loved him so much. You almost feel jealous at how much Yangyang brags about him all the time.

You really didn't talk to him before until that day when you find out about what your ex did, you don't remember much of that day except for Yangyang taking care of you.

"So you're telling me you actually never have interactive with ge before. Yn, you been at my house countless times, and you are all over my Instagram, we've been friends for years, you even took pictures with my at my graduation. How is that Kun and you never really saw each other?"

The conversation about how Kun didn't know you obviously popped when he was helping you to get ready your evidence for the council department a few days later, after Yangyang told you about the little moment he had with Kun and Ten in his house.

"You never really introduce us, and to be fair to him, he's always so busy he's barely at your home in the day, and the times we're there for a party he's always with Johnny or Taeyong, and he never go out clubbing with us.

What? Why are you looking at me like that?"

"Nothing, nothing. It just hit me that I was really mad with him, and I didn't think before about what you're telling me. Oh my God, I'm the worst friend and brother ever"

That night, the topic was done.

Last night your could see him interacting more with everyone, you even saw the way he was taking care of Shotaro when he got so drunk he begged him to do magic tricks.

You were in your space with Sion and other friends, and when Yangyang saw you were already tipsy, he took you to his room.

This morning with light heart and head, you could see Kun better. He was just a little shorter than Yangyang, he looked clean and approachable, he was nice and almost carry without looking pitiful or fake, he acted like the older brother of a friend would.

Between work and classes, the day passed fast, and now you were in your apartment getting ready to go out with Yangyang and the rest of the guys. You absolutely love spending time with all of your friends it doesn't matter if you all see each other every day they still make sure to have the best time.

"Hey Taro, what's up?"

"Heeeeeey, Yangyang and I are still stuck at the gallery with paperwork, I asked Jungwoo if he could pick you up but he didn't answer his phone. So Kun is picking you up, we'll see you all of you at the club, ok?"

"Is that okay? He don't need to, I can take a taxi or something"

"No no, is okay, Yangyang asked him, he send you his number so just text him when you're ready. I need to go, see you"

It was weird, of course it was, you didn't want him to think you were using him as a driver, the ride in the morning coud be enough, but again, Kun was all polite and he send you a text first repeating Shotaro's words.

You calculate the time it would take you to actually finish and the time Kun could be at your door so you could send him the message.

Just in time Kun was waiting for you in front of the building out of his car, he greeting you and opened the door so you coud sit in the passenger sit

"You didn't have to come, I told Shotaro i coud get to the club by myself"

"Is okay, really"

Kun was still wearing the same suit from this morning, hair well done and calm aura while driving. Kun was handsome, not the handsome type like Yangyang who is more boyish and playful, almost childish even, or the handsome type like Xiaojun who holds this second lead aura round him who's always willing to love but not loved enough.

Kun was handsome in an almost sophisticated way, like if calculated his movements before doing it, the high nose and pale pink lips with deep brown eyes, he could be an amazing main character inspo, almost too perfect.

The train of your thoughts stoped when Jungwoo voice cut the air in the car "Good you pick her up! You should stay with us, ge. Just a moment, tomorrow is Saturday is not like you have to go to work"

"I dont know, Woo. I'm not even dressed properly"

Jungwoo laughed "Kun, is a club not a meeting! Nobody would care about what you're wearing, tell him Yn!"

Kun turned his eyes to you for a short moment still decline it the other boy proposal "Jungwoo is right, no one cares about what you wear. You should come, it will be fun"

Just like this morning the roles seems to chance a bit when he declined once more and you insisted. He accepted after a long breath

"O.M.G guys, Kun Ge is coming tonight"

☆

The parking lot wasn't that far from the club, the walk to the place was short which was good considering the boots you picked tonight were a little higher than what you usually do but hey everything for fashion.

The way was silent until you phone started to ring

"You're with Kun?"

"Yes, why?"

The man next to you gave you a look when you looked at him. Perfect hair and chic glasses on his nose, yeah, he would be an amazing lead inspo

"I can't believe he's actually coming with us tonight! put me on speaker.

Ge, Taro, and I got already inside. When you get here, just skip the line. I told Bobby from security you are my brother, okay?

Yn, I told Bobby, Kun is coming with you so he can know who he is, don't lose my brother, please"

Yeah sure, is easy to lose a 5.9' men.

"Oh, by the way, Sion is here too, he's already a little happy so this is gonna be a short night for you protected. See you Xin"

"Xin?" Kun asked after Yangyang ended the call

"He calls me like that sometimes, he calls me something elese but I can't pronunce it"

"Xiao Xin?"

Hearing Yangyang speaking Chinese was always an experience, the way the sounds wrapped up in his tongue were hard for you to imitate, his voice even became a little, just a little higher than when he speak english, it was understandable being that the same thing happened to you speaking english and your mother tongue.

You came from a multicultural home, so speaking different languages was normal, but Mandarin was something that you didn't know if you would even master.

Just like his younger brother, Kun's voice got deeper.

"No, it sounds different"

Kun's eyes were focused somewhere as he searched in his head for what nickname Yangyang could give you. There were too many words that started with the character Xin or ended up with, whatever the case was.

"Xingan?"

"Oh yeah, that. He always calls me that but I can't pronounce it and he never tells me what does it mean. He said is something good and I trust him"

Before Kun could reply, he found himself in front of the line to get into the club. Bobby was a tall (pretty tall) man with bald head and piercings in both eyebrows, he greeting you with a hug and made small talk before giving you both of you access to the place.

The club was everything Kun expect to be: loud, multicolor lights, too many people and it smell like alcohol, perfume and sweat, you and him walked more inside trying to find the ground when a hand wrapped round your arm, before you could say something Kun was already between the other man and you

"Yangyang brother?"

Sion looked already drunk just like Yangyang told you, his hair and clothes were messy, his cheeks rosy and glossy eyes

"Sion, you scared me! Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I saw you and I thought you were alone. I was buying a round for the guys"

You laugh "okay big boy, why don't we buy some sparkly water for you and take me to the table with the rest of the boys"

Kun looked how you interlock your arm with the other boy and started to walk wherever Sion was going.

The boys were the same from yesterday, Yangyang and Shotaro semi formal clothes were already loose, Jungwoo shirt only had one button close showing his chest and abdomen for other part Johnny's one was totally open.

"Where is the rest of the crew?"

"Where do you think - Sion says- on the dance floor"

The rest of the night was weird for Kun, his friends made him feel included like they actually enjoyed his presence there and he knew they did. It was just that Kun was never good with this thing of loosing his mind.

He was having issues getting into the mood.

He decided not to drink the moment he agreed with coming tonight, his drinks were based on lime soda and orange juice, he knew he would have to drive probably all of the boys to their respective houses or in the worst scenario, take all of them to his home.

You for other part was having the time of your life, Bubblegum Bitch was playing in the back while you and Yangyang were dancing and shouting the lyrics, that song was your song

You should actually ask Taro to made a good choreography for you, just for fun.

Kun saw how his brother and you sing your hearts out to G.U.Y and did poses instead of dancing. The feeling he alredy knew started to build in his chest

It wasn't jealousy or envying, it was the Hopeless knowledge he probably could never feel sush freedom.

He was happy, he was having a great time actually, but Kun was all about good manners and looks. He didn't know if he could do something that simple like wearing his shirt fully open in a club like Johnny or drinking without worry like Sion.

Still he tried to have a good time.

"Kun! Can you help to bring the other round, please?"

Even with the sweat on you forehead the make up was good, you hair that was down when the night started was now in a high ponytail and Kun wasn't sure were the jacket you were wearing was right now. He said yes.

You ordered a round of shots and some bottles of water.

"You prefer vodka or tequila?"

"Sorry?"

"Tequila or vodka? Im bought it you a drink, Kun"

Okay, note: it wasn't like Kun was a prude or something, he liked to go out back in school, when he did his school exchange he was out 3 days a week and after exam season it was more often. He knew he was handsome, he is aware but again, in his head is rude and unpolited to say such a thing put loud.

Even nowadays when he need to go out for work it was common that girls try to flirt with him. Sometimes he agreed with it, always being respectful and honest about if his interested or not

He knew when someone showed interest, but he wasn't sure right now.

You could be doing this like a friend, righ?

Are you even friends?

Now that he was aware of your presence it was impossible not to think about your actions all the time.

The past two weeks he didn't see you until the party, he knew you were with Yangyang because curiosity took the best of him and he checked Yangyang's instagram like morning papers.

He saw the pictures his younger brother posted of himself, his friends, his art, and you.

It was the post of you two having dinner, eating, papers and stuff he didn't get. It was the story of you next to Shotaro holding a drink that Yangyang bought for you two.

Kun is interested in you, and for some reason he felt weird about it

"I'm not drinking tonight, I'm gonna drive"

"Oh, okay, okay. You want a new... whatever alcohol free stuff you're drinking?

"Another lime soda, please" he told to the bartender

Damn.

The hard part of leaving the club wasn't paying the ticket, was to get Johnny into the car.

Kun didn't know how all of the boys could fit in, most important, how is that you, of all of them, was the one sober enough to help him to carry everyone.

"Are you really driving all of then to their house?"

"I think I just let them sleep on my living floor- you laugh- I'll drive you home first, don't worry"

"Whos gonna help you with them?"

"Don't worry I'll find a way"

The drive to your home was easy, while the boys slept in the back sits you and him did small talk, he learn that you worked in a lawsuit and were studying literature.

He told you about his job and that he wasn't a picky eater. You also learned he likes to drink beer .

"Please text me when you get home"

"I will"

"No, Kun, im being serious, let me know when all of you are safe in your apartment"

"Sure, don't...

"Don't worry, I know.

Good night, ge"

"Good Night"

☆

Takin 7 guys to his house took him 30 minutes and two attempts to finish the work.

He was sure all of them were comfortable and out of danger to die so he could go back to his room. He could leave all or them just there but he knew he couldn't

He leave painkillers, bottles of water and make sure there's food enough to make breakfast for all of you tomorrow morning.

"Ge, where's my Xingan?"

"I drove her to her house. Go back to sleep Yang"

"Thank you for everything, gege, love you bro"

This was Yangyang all cheesy and carry even is his drunk state.

The first thing he did after closing his door was texting you

Me: We alredy home. Good night, Yn.

Yn: You actually made them sleep in your living floor?

Me: Should I send a photo?

Yn: Is that even a question? Of course you should.

Me: Okay.

You were already wearing you pjs after cleaning your self ready to get in bed when Kun texted you.

The wait wasn't that long and after a while the pictures of all of your friends shared all around the floor bodies hugging each other's. They're a mess and you love it.

Yn: Sweet. I will use this against Hendery when I get the chance to. Thank you, Ge. Good night

The bubble showed he was typing his answer appears and dissappear. He was thinking his answer.

Me: Please let me know when that happens.

Out of topic. If you ever need someone to drive you please tell me. Good night.

You liked his message and you turned off your phone.

Meanwhile Kun was lied in his bed seeing your last connection time after you reacting to his message.

One week later~

“Haechan is getting late.” You mumbled looking at your phone screen, your fingers restlessly tapping on it. You took a quick look around the bus terminal again in hopes to spot the auburn-haired boy.

“I swear to god, if he won’t show up in the next 10 minutes, we’re leaving without him!” Renjun rolled his eyes angrily.

“We can’t do that! He organized the whole thing himself for you guys! Don’t be so mean to him.” You chuckled at his furious eyebrows.

“The more reason why he should be here already! Stop taking his side!” he whined back. You let out an amused laugh.

“Fine, fine. I’ll try calling him again-“Before you could dial, you heard some footsteps running towards you and Renjun from behind your backs. You didn’t turn around fast enough. The only thing you heard was a body collision and Renjun’s sudden scream, later accompanied by a familiar teasing voice.

“IM HEREEEE!!” Haechan happily announced, his body clinging on Renjun’s back like a koala, trying to restrict his hands from grabbing him by the collar.

“Finally!” you grinned.

“YOU’RE A DEAD MAN, GET OFF ME YOU MONKEY!” Renjun barked back at him.

“I’m sorry im late, I forgot to set an alarm~” he sang teasingly, hopping off Renjun’s back. Renjun eyed him menacingly.

“You’re lucky y/n is present or else this would’ve ended up differently!” he growled.

“I don’t really mind~” you sang teasingly. Renjun viciously grinned at your remark, his eyes falling right back to Haechan, whose face was filled with disbelief.

“I worked my ass off for this and that’s the thanks I get??”

Before you could say anything else, a mini van that looked like a small bus arrived at the terminal. The front door opened as you walked over.

“Good morning! Are you the ones that rented this vehicle for the whole day today?” the driver politely asked you.

“Yes! That’s us!” you smiled back at him.

“Hop in then! We are about to go behind schedule! The road through the mountain is considerably longer and bumpier than the highway!” he said.

“We’re not using the highway to get to the beach?” you tilted your head to the side.

“I was planning to but the gentleman who booked us specifically requested that we use go through the mountain. He said the view would be more enjoyable. I have to say, I can’t blame him. The view really is breathtaking up there!” he beamed. Your eyes started sparkling with excitement. Maybe Haechan knew what he was doing after all.

“Come on then! We don’t have any time to lose!” the driver shouted at the two boys behind you, gesturing them to enter the bus.

“Wait, we’re still 5 people short!” you exclaimed in a hurry. Mere seconds from your sentences and two figures swiftly passed in front of you in the speed of light, violently entering the bus, screaming at one another.

“FRONT SEATS ARE MINE!!” Chenle sneakered evily.

“I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU TIED MY SHOELACES TOGETHER! HOW OLD ARE YOU?!” Jisung screamed back.

You were starring in awe and disbelief. Then a hand rested on your shoulder. Your eyes fell at the boy on your right as he was heavily panting.

“We’re, huff, here... huff” Mark said out of breath before he dragged his body inside as well.

“Shall we get going as well y/n?” A gentle voice offered from behind your back, a hand slightly pushing you towards the bus entrance. You glanced behind you.

“Oh, you guys arrived just now as well?” you wondered as your legs started climbing the steps inside.

“Yes~” Jaemin hummed sweetly, as Jeno kept pushing you further inside.

“Y/N wait up!” Renjun yelled, as he hurried to the bus as well, picking up his fallen backpack in the process. Right when he was about to enter, he felt an arm yanking him back. He glared at Haechan in annoyance.

“What? What is it this time?!” he cried in frustration. Haechan just looked at him in silence, his lip corners slowly transforming into a sly grin. Renjun’s eyes widened. He felt cold sweat on his forehead. He just knew that somehow; his friend was up to something.

“What did you do?” he asked him with a shaky voice.

“…It’s a surprise~” Haechan’s eyes glistened in thrill as his masterplan had finally started.

“After you~” he hummed, gesturing Renjun to move inside.

“I will kill you…” Renjun sweared under his breath before quickly entering the bus, Haechan following suit right behind him.

Upon entering, the bickering and screaming noises became amplified. The inside of the bus was a complete mayhem. Renjun’s eyes scanned the place for anything suspicious. Everyone was already seated with someone. Except from Mark and you. Mark was sitting in the third row, messing with his phone. You on the other hand, were seated in the far back of the bus, right next to the window, your eyes eagerly waiting for Renjun to come sit next to you. Renjun was so anxious about everything at that point. His initial plan was to sit next to you either way. But Haechan’s words were resonating inside his head, making him have second thoughts about every decision he would make in this god forsaken trip. He knew very well what kind of surprise his friend could have meant. And he wasn’t about to fool himself in front of you. He would never.

His eyes quickly fell to the seat besides Mark. Haechan, being very attentive of his friend, dramatically jumped in the way, falling flat on top of Mark, denying him the opportunity to sit next to him in a flash. Mark screamed in agony while Haechan was just eyeing back his still standing and very infuriated friend.

“Oh sorry, but this seat is mine~” he sang innocently.

“You will not live to see the light of day again.” Renjun threatened.

“Oh no, Im so scared!” Haechan acted in fear before a grin appeared in his features once more. “Go sit with your lovie in the back~” he teased.

Renjun’s face turned into a pale shade of pink, he could feel the embarrassment traveling through his whole body. He took a glance at you. You looked at him in complete obliviousness, smiling like an idiot. He sighed in defeat before shooting Haechan one last look of death, before making his way over to your seat. Taking a deep breath, he placed his backpack to the floor, right next to his seat. His eyes were still fidgeting around the bus cabin in a desperate attempt to find something out of the ordinary that Haechan could use against him.

“Renjun? Is everything okay?” you wondered.

“Yeah, everything’s fine, why?” he quickly replied, not looking you in the eyes.

“You look a bit… out of it, that’s all.” You smiled at him.

“N-no, it’s nothing, don’t worry about it.” He sighed in frustration, as he carefully sat down next to you. You instantly moved closer to him, trying to show him something funny on your phone, already snickering. He jumped inside his skin, startled by your sudden movement and the usual closeness of your bodies. He gulped in defeat. Haechan took one last glance over at his distressed friend.

“Wait for the surprise I have prepared once we get to the beach” he snickered to himself.

“Surprise?? What surprise-“ Mark wondered before Haechan’s hand covered his mouth with lightning speed.

“You’ll see~” he schemed.

~

You knew that the trip would take longer than usual, but you didn’t expect it to take that long. It was almost early noon, and you were still on road somewhere up in the mountain. Although, the view from up there was really something else. You could see glimpses of the sea in the horizon every few seconds, as the bus crossed through a wide variety of trees, grown to the sides of the road. The only complain you had was that the road condition could’ve been better. It was about fifteen minutes ago that the bus cabin was getting shaken every few seconds because of the harshness of the road. Most of the shakiness wasn’t that bad. On the contrary, it was the kind that could make a person sleepy. But sometimes, the bus cabin was jumping up so violently, it almost made you sit up from your sit, thinking that something was going wrong.

Needless to say, you got used to it pretty quickly. You couldn’t say so about Renjun though. His eyes were restless. His body was too. Whenever your legs bumped together accidentally, he scooted his whole body further away from you. Every time your hands or arms touched, he flinched away in an instant. He never had any problems with those things in the past. Yes, sometimes he would blush, but he was always quick to recover. You stole a glance of him with the corner of your eye. You sighed to yourself quietly, looking outside the window once again. This wasn’t how you imagined the mood of the trip would be. Not a word had left his mouth since he sat besides you. Every attempt you made to initiate some kind of conversation with him was somehow turned down by short or one-word answers. He didn’t even dare to look at you for some reason, as he was still eyeing the whole cabin for something. You just felt a little disappointed. You were looking forward to all the new things and conversations you could have shared at the trip. Maybe he had one of those days.

Renjun’s heart skipped another beat as your legs accidentally touched with the shaking of the bus cabin. He cursed under his breath. Only if Haechan hadn’t told him anything from the beginning. Only if he had kept all his feelings inside him this whole time. But he knew that was barely impossible. He stole a glance at you. You were looking outside the window peacefully, admiring the view from up there. He would agree that outside was very beautiful, yes, but he swore that what his eyes were laying upon was breathtaking. He gulped in frustration. He could see a tiny frown in your facial features after all. And he knew that him not actually interacting with you for the whole journey was the case of it. But his mind was lost. He didn’t know how to act. He felt like a kid that his parents were denying him a sparkling toy. He was a good boy. He didn’t want to cross any line. But boy, how he wished he could. He felt a strange heat emitting from inside his heart, slowly taking over every inch of his body. He felt a change happening. Full of horror, he managed to take his eyes off of you. Instead, his gaze fell to the lower half of his body. His eyes widened in shock.

“Fuck” he cursed in his mind.

You felt a tiny cramp in your legs, as you tried to stretch them out in the little space you had between you and the back of the front seat. Your face frowned a bit as it didn’t seem to particularly work like you intended. You poked your head slightly above the back of your front seat, curious as to what the others were up to. All you could see was the top of their heads above their seats. And much to your surprise, they were acting rather appropriately for a bus ride. The mayhem at the start of the trip had ceased a long time ago. Almost everyone was on their phone, it seemed like. Maybe someone was sleeping as well, given that you could hear a light snoring. Some of them were chatting away about stuff. There was some music in the background as well. The driver sure had some nice taste. You felt your leg muscle twitching slightly again as you groaned in annoyance, your body falling back of your seat soundly.

That seemed to somewhat pique the interest of the boy next to you, as he gave you a confused look. You glanced back at him for a few seconds, trying to get into his mind. Sadly, it didn’t work at all.

“My leg muscle is acting up a bit” you explained.

“Oh”

“Yeah… I think I need to walk a bit or else my leg is gonna fall asleep.” You exclaimed, as your body instinctively moved towards Renjun’s seat, ready to sit up, expecting him to sit up as well to let you move to the aisle. His body did not move an inch. His eyes just widened at your request before he felt his muscles tensing up. His arms grabbed his jacket almost instinctively, throwing it on his lap. He shifted his upper body nervously before awkwardly tucking his legs to the side. You were confused at his actions to say the least. There was a faint blush painting his ears and cheeks. Was he frustrated about something? Wouldn't it be easier for him to sit up for a second? Oh well, it didn’t matter.

Standing up, you tidied up your clothes for a moment, before carefully passing in front of him. It was right at that moment that the road decided to be bumpier than ever. The whole bus cabin shook violently. Your legs lost control of your body for a second, making you lose your balance. In those mere seconds before you hit Renjun, you managed to shift your body in a way that in your mind, thought that it wouldn’t hurt him by the impact. Your eyes shut firmly. You felt a pair of hands reaching and hugging your body around your waist, accompanied by a soft, yet somewhat painful sounding groan. You looked up in an instant. You found yourself sitting in his lap, somewhat hugging him.

“Oh my god, are you okay??” you frantically asked but he just breathed heavily in response.

“I’m so sorry, I lost my balance- Does it hurt??” you shoved your worried face in front of his, your hands slightly examining his upper body for any signs of pain.

Renjun’s face lit up at the closeness of your bodies. Yes, the fall kind of hurt but it was nothing compared to the heat he was feeling on his face that moment. He just looked at you in awe, his mind desperately trying to formulate words. All his senses became keener. Your words were flowing inside his mind. Your breath gently hitting his face. Your gentle figure pressuring softly on his body. He felt his fingertips burning around your waist. He felt his mind about to shut down at the way your thighs were shifting on his lap. He was overwhelmed. He never knew his body was going to react this way towards yours. He had always thought about it. In theory. But he never imagined the actual thing to be this intense. This heated. This needy.

You took his face in your hands gently, trying to take a look at his face, as you didn’t get any answer the whole time you were freaking out about him. You never thought you’d see his face so red. He was starting to sweat as well.

“Renjun, your face is hot!” you exclaimed in worry. “Are you having a fever?”

“…Maybe” he muttered under his breath. Of course he knew he wasn’t sick. But while he could somehow think clearly, he tried to avert you from the real problem. His problem. But it proved to be an impossible task. All he was thinking about was the weight of your body against him and how much it was turning him on. He felt his hands clenching tighter against your skin. His breath becoming heavier and heavier by the second.

You were looking at him attentively this whole time. Your mind was telling you something was wrong. You wanted to believe that all this was just a sickness. Then why did your body started to feel weird? You couldn’t look at his face anymore. You found your body shifting nervously on his lap. Your head was yelling at you to sit up. But weirdly enough, all strength was lost from your legs. You felt a familiar heat spreading to your whole body. The same kind of heat you felt on his face. The same kind of heat you felt on his body. You strangely found yourself craving for that heat. Your heart beat faster and faster. With every passing second, the true situation unfolding had started to hit you for the first time. Suddenly, you became self-aware. Aware of the closeness of your bodies. Aware of your unstable breathings. Aware that your bodies fitted each other so perfectly.

In a moment of clarity, it seemed like your mind gave your body the needed push to try and sit up from his lap.

“I-I’m sorry, Imma move-“ Before you could finish your sentence, you felt your hands being grabbed tightly, pulling you back down on his lap, your back facing him this time. Your eyes widened in surprise as your body was still somewhat trying to break free from his grasp. Not because you hated it. No, you loved this feeling. But it was a dangerous place for this right now.

“Renjun, a-are you okay- Umh!” Renjun’s hands left your forearms and this time landed on your thighs, his fingers digging into them.

“Don’t” he tried to control his heavy breathing. “Please… Don’t move y/n”

You nodded immediately at his request. You couldn’t help that feeling though. The feeling that you somehow belonged there. There was it again. That heat. Your eyes darted up to the rest of his friends, worrying that someone might have picked up on the situation.

“…Are you gonna be okay like this?” you stuttered softly.

“Probably, just… stay like this for a second…” he inhaled, letting his head rest on the back of your body. He breathed in and out, trying to relax himself. Your scent was mixed with the air. He couldn’t explain why but your scent always seemed to relax him.

“Y/n…” he whispered under his breath.

“Y-yes?”

“…I’m sorry” You took a deep breath, trying to sound as level minded and logical as possible.

“I-its okay Renjun… It’s a natural reaction after all, it’s not your fault-“

“But it is…” he confessed.

“…” your heart skipped a beat.

“This wasn’t the way I imagined it to go after all…” he muttered almost silently. “I… I like you” he breathed against your back.

The three words kept ringing in your ears. You felt your body strangely relax at their sound. You let out a small chuckle, finally relieving all the pent-up tension. Your hand found its way on top of Renjun’s grip, softly trying to caress it.

“Stop laughing at me…”

“Shh… relax… it’s going to be fine…” you smiled to yourself. “I know it must be hard for you right now. What do you want me to do?” you reassured him with a soft soothing voice.

Renjun’s body flinched at your gentle voice. His muscles finally seemed to relax a little bit.

“Just… stay like this for a bit…” he breathed, his mind starting to clear bit by bit. You sweetly hummed back at him in response, your thumb caressing his hand gently. His face was still buried on your back. He took a deep breath. He softened his grip on your thighs little by little, as the rush and tension from before had started to slowly vanish, being replaced by the most heartwarming feelings in the world. His fingers shyly danced around your hand, finally finding their way and entangling them with yours.

“Better?” you whispered sweetly.

“Yeah, you can move now” he finally exhaled.

You swiftly jumped over to your seat. Renjun shut his eyes and threw back his head in irritation. Not at you. Not at the previous situation. He was mentally beating himself up for the fact that this was the way he actually ended up confessing to you. He felt like hitting his head against a wall. He just did not want to face you that moment. He was embarrassed. But also so content. But he couldn’t help feeling flustered again for the fact that he was feeling content. You could not blame him. How could you? The same feelings came crushing to you as well. You shyly stole a glance of him. His ears were on fire. The same blushing veil fell over his cheeks as well. His mind was trying hopelessly to formulate words. Yours, being a little clearer at the moment, beat him to it.

“For what it’s worth… I like you as well” The words left your mouth so naturally. Renjun’s frantic eyes softened immediately at the sound of your words. A small smile formed on his lips, as he exhaled in total defeat.

“Let me make a better confession next time y/n” he chuckled to himself.

“Why? I quite liked this one~” you looked out the window, half joking, a little brushing of pink still evident on your ears.