#nc2015

In 14 days or so I will turn 494 years-old. In my time walking this earth, I have…

… from an early age, become uncomfortably acquainted with loss – loss of my parents, family members, and dear friends to this world. I cherish the memories and times shared as well as lament the unsaid and for the times we will never have again…

… Broken and mended hearts. In my youth, I was reckless and callous towards love and affection, breaking a few hearts in the process. My young self-apologizes for the angst and pain I might have caused. For the hearts I have mended I hope to continue to provide solace, love, compassion and understanding….

…taken advantage of great opportunities but squandered more out of fear and self-doubt; I am learning to overcome and conquer my obstacles…

…done more good than bad. Shakespeare wrote, “The evil that men do lives after them. The good is oft interrèd with their bones.” I hope for the appositive. Whatever good I have done on this earth I hope outlives any wrong I might have ever done.

…come to realize that I have trust issues. I tend to be open and cordial, but I am realizing I am guarded. I tend to be question people’s agenda when perhaps I shouldn’t. Is that normal?

…not been at times the ideal friend, sibling, husband, father but I have tried and will continue each day to try to be the best to each…